When Dad got back, he hung a swing in one of our trees. I had told him that I would love one of those one-person-rope-on-each-end-of-a-single-board swings....you know, the kind you swing on when you’re a kid and you can just go on and on for hours because you can swing yourself without ever touching the ground? Yeah, one of those :) Aaaand he finally got around to doing that. It’s pretty sweet if you ask me. It’s hung in one of the oaks near the garage/basement entrance, and it’s just a nice view in front.... I told Dad that we need to put another swing on the other side of the tree, and then rig a bench around the base, that way if two people want to swing they can...or if one person does and the other prefers to sit that’s cool too. Yay for reliving childhood :D
Mom and I watched some of American Idol....but we didn’t really watch too much TV. We did walk down to the back of our property. There’s a cedar tree there that took a whole lot of damage from the ice storm. Dad says he’s going to use the fallen limbs as kindling because evidently cedar makes for great kindling. We also surveyed another section of our land, this one the place I hope my trailer will soon be. There is much preparation that will need to be done for that. Luckily, the people who sell the trailer also help with arranging the area for the trailer to be on, and they take their labor for preparing the area out of the trailer fee....which is pretty awesome.
Oh! My commissions finally came in yesterday too! Our mail passes really late in the afternoon here (like 3ish), so when we were walking the mail went by. I went to go and get it and lo and behold, there was my commission from Kth. I contacted her...in 2007, after I’d attended the Gathering of the Gargoyles in Tennessee. Her artwork really just captured me, and it was awesome how she just seemed to understand animal anatomy so well. It made me think that if would be great to work with her on animal sketches since she’d really be able to help decipher what was all fantasy and what could actually work. So, I asked her to draw my 4 Ancients for me...and, over the period of 2 years I finally got them. We both ended up going through circumstances that lead us away from the project, but now it’s finally finished! When I got them, I immediately put them in protective sleeves, because I don’t have frames to put them in yet, and, well, a house to hank them in =..= So, they’ll have to go in with the artwork that Scamp drew for me for now....until I can get them framed properly. Anyway, the pictures are all at her deviantArt page. There’s Kaze The Wind Lord, Kaiyou The Ocean Lord, Tenkaichi The Earth Lord, and Shakaku The Flame Lord.....and they look so awesome XD It’s just so nice to actually see them...outside of my head. These were the first four characters that I ever thought up, and they’ve been with me since I was about 10. I still don’t have anything to represent their human forms, but I knew their animal forms would be more dynamic, so I was very eager to find someone who would help me with that. So much love for Kth for this. I hope if I can find a job and get back up on my feet again, to contact her again :) I also got Sea Horse from her...because it’s just so awesome :) Shoo-Bee-Do my @$$ :3
Oh, I got my tax refund in too, which is awesome. Sure, it’ll mostly go into a savings account, but hey. Having money is always a good thing. I just hope I can get a job and keep that money untouched until it’s otherwise needed. Tomorrow, Mom and I are going to head in to town and I’m going to apply at the local college, along with a few doctor’s offices and I’m also going to a staffing place. I’m optimistic that if the other places aren’t haring, at least the staffing place will help...though, the realist in me knows no matter how many resumes you hand out or interviews you go on, your fate is entirely in other peoples’ hands.
Anyway....after supper yesterday (which was early strangely enough), I made some oatmeal raisin cookies (my favourites) and they were the enormous ones....they were awesome. I made sure to pack some away for Dad’s trip, because they’re some of his favourites too. He and Mom wanted to watch Wheel of Fortune....and I took that as my queue to get on World of Warcraft :) Yaviel is finally level 40, and she’s wearing a rockin’ red outfit....actually, I’m just grateful that she’s out of the short-shorts -..- Those were a tad embarrassing. Got to talk with Scamp while she was on too. That was fun. I was slightly distracted by my Dad’s GPS dilemma. I asked him if he’d taken his GPS out of his truck (which he’d put in the shop) and put it in my car (which he was taking for his trip out). I got a “O..O” face as a response, so I had to give him a bit of instruction on how to use my GPS so that he could actually get there. Thank God for GPSes though...I’d be so lost without them :3 punny.
I guess...that’s really all there is to talk about. We did go to Branson with the Pastor and his wife Saturday, and I have pictures from there that I really need to upload to FaceBook and MySpace (there was sushi; we went to Wasabi for supper...I still prefer The Sushi Place, but when you’re with people who don’t eat sushi, it’s considerate to go to a place that has more than just sushi). Other than that there’s really nothing else to talk about. So...Guess I’ll write later, Sunshines.
You Should Light a Berry Candle |
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That was Monday...I think. We got back and watched more movies of course. Tuesday she started reading Twilight around 1ish, and she didn’t stop till some time after 6. Then...she got her stuff, got in her car and went to Wal-Mart to buy New Moon. O..O Whoops...my bad. Uh, then she read that till about 3:30 in the morning. When I woke up this morning around 11 (yes, we stayed up late so I slept late), she was reading my copy of Eclipse :D spreading the addiction, one person at a time.
As far as movies go, we covered The Flight of Dragons, Hellboy, Labyrinth, The Inheritance, Robin Hood - Men in Tights, X-Men: Evolution Season 1, the first episode of season 2 of X-men: Evolution, and the Pilot of Supernatural. She’s extraordinarily sheltered...so Supernatural isn’t to her taste. She thinks while it is entertaining, it’s too scary. As per my rule, you don’t have to watch everything I like. But if there is a series I like, then I require the first episode to be seen. Then you can decide :) We both love The Inheritance....as does most every girl I know who’s seen it...it’s especially great if only because it’s based on a true story.
Of the movies she wanted to see, we didn’t get to see Legend, Quest for Camelot, and The Goonies....but, I’m not going anywhere and whenever I get my trailer, I’m sure she’ll be about to hang out more often. There’s also Dune and Firefly which, she isn’t sure if she’s seen or not...which, those are the types of movies that if you’ve seen them, you know that you’ve seen them.
....and, tomorrow, after I’ve cleaned up the house a bit and put the laundry on to wash, I fully intend to have a Supernatural marathon. I’ve already got the first disk of Season 1 down...
Oh! When we went to Wal-Mart, I finally found a leather thingy that holds a monthly planner and a note pad along with pockets for other papers. I’d been looking for one for ages and the ones they had just weren’t meeting my needs exactly. Well I got this one, and tonight at church, I wrote! I wrote like 3 pages...which, admittedly, is not a lot. But! When you consider that I haven’t written anything since about a month before the move...it’s progress and that’s what matters. What also matters, is that it’s a section that actually goes in my original about where I left off :) I am pleased with myself, and I hope to keep up the good work. I’m also planning on putting copies of my resume in there for when I got job hunting....it’s a little unprofessional to carry them around in the folder I have that has “Waiting to be Discovered” on the outside :3 Unprofessional but loaded with personality :D
I guess that’s all for now...I mean, I’m sure there’s things to talk about but...meh. When I feel ‘meh’ about an entry, that means it’s time to stop typing :3 Soooo, till next time. ‘Night, Sunshines.
You Are the Artist |
 You are unique and inspired. You aren't happy unless you are making art of some sort. Almost anything can be a catalyst for your creativity. You find the whole world stimulating. You have beautiful visions, and you're good at expressing them. You like people to see what you see. You also have an inventor's spirit. You're always thinking up new ideas and concepts. |
I went out and got Scamp Saturday. The drive was fun, but my house was being whittled down little by little in the 4 hours it took. My parents had moved everything from upstairs into the shed and many of the things I just didn’t need as well. My mattress was on the floor downstairs. During the down-time we had when my parents were busy with...something else…Scamp and I exchanged birthday gifts! She loved her gifts and I was sooo happy! I got her the Hoard key chain and made it into a necklace, and I got her a Figure Print of Fallena! It was so awesome! And she loved it and stared at it in awe for a long long time. Scamp was...uh, a little disappointed when one of my gifts didn’t really work out. She and Bear had gotten me a beautiful necklace of an owl flying with a moonstone in it’s claws, but she’d also gotten me this tank that has fake jellyfish in it...but, the pump for the tank didn’t work so the jellyfish just sank to the bottom of the tank -..- so yeah, she was disappointed. I loved the necklace though! I told her, “I shall call him ‘Jareth’ and he shall be mine :-D!”. That night was miserable, because my dad’s snoring is unholy...and since we were all sleeping in the same room, that really came into play that night.
Sunday, after church, we all went to Subway. Tried that new Chicken Pizziola or whatever it’s called...it wasn’t bad. Just…not something I’d go out of my way for. When we got home, Mom and Dad had packed up to leave for New Orleans, but the battery on Dad’s truck died. So he had to go to town and get a new one. But once that was done, Scamp and I were pretty much on our own. The geek fest began and much talking and giddy babbling commenced.
Monday was a little harsh...work was just so intense after the more busy than usual weekend. Also, at this point, everyone’s panicked because they realize it’s my last week. Monday and Tuesday went by pretty much the same. I was so very very tired, and went home to talk more with Scamp and vaguely pay attention to Bones. We packed as much as we could, but even when we were doing that, we were talking so much it was like we weren’t working. My parents actually got back from N.O. that afternoon, but they were staying with my Aunt Carolyn for the night. And, yesterday, I canceled my DSL for the 20th, and then later that day, Scamp tells me that they unhooked the computer and packed the wires in a box =..= so yeah...work’s the only way to post aside from Voice Post...which may happen tomorrow ^..^ Scamp managed to crank out some seriously awesome WoW fan fiction too. I dunno if it's cause we just talk about our character so much or because here she can relax a bit more or what, but it was awesome! And just in time too, because my parents showed up to pack everything just after she finished =..=
Oh! And I found something I desperately wanted. I’ve been wanting a mac for so long, but I can’t afford it. Aaaand, I’d been wanting to get a lap top too, because…well, sometimes I shut my computer off and late at night I get ideas to write...and I’d just like to have a laptop. Especially since my Dad was saying there are two colleges in the town and I might go back to college again o..o But anyway! I looked on Amazon.com to see if there were any good laptops that weren’t too highly priced. Well, I found a pretty awesome MacPro...and it’s about $700 (yes, it’s considered used, but it’s ‘Like New’ so I’m sorta ok with that!), which for a Mac is really awesome! So, I was thinking of saving up my next two checks as much as possible (which is what I’d be doing anyway) and spending my money on that...Merry Christmas to Me, you know? It’d be nice...
Oh, and last night, after class, everyone had a little party for me with this awesome cake and everything! It was funny because they gave me the cutting knife, and I sorta twirled the handle a bit so that the point was facing downward and just stabbed in the center of the cake, and everyone who was watching went, “Whoa!” After we ate and went over to join the others that were sitting about, C.J. asked me “So, did you get any more s words?” and I was like, “S words? Like…Salamander? Or...Sincere?” and he was like, “No! Swords!” and I was like. “oh....” only a minute later did I get S Words put together equals Swords...kinda like Flo Rida, put together is Florida. Yeah -..- I was tired. But yeah. I told him that I’d found the Halo Sword on Amazon...and that I had a whole Wish List dedicated to various swords and weapons...he was thrilled, but I’m not quite sure why O..o Funny how it amazes me to meet someone just as geeky as I am...in a place where I thought I knew how everyone already was before.
So...today Reiko comes over. The girls said that they’re treating me to Zen’s (well, they said it was my choice so booya :-D.). There are still things to worry about...but I kinda don’t want to anymore. I’m so tired and I can’t. So I’m just going to give the girls at work their Christmas/Going Away presents and have fun and enjoy my last few days here. I even brought my camera today to mark the occasion. I don’t have enough pictures of the girls as far as I’m concerned. So that’s all I’m worried about today. I do still need a change of address form, and to talk to my Edward Jones guy, but I’m thinking that’s something I might be able to squeeze in today and tomorrow. I’ll just have to check. But I refuse to worry about it.
I guess I’m off again. I was taking a little brain break because in the little time I’ve had sitting down I manage to get 7 pages of stats done =..= I can’t wait till 5. So, I’m off again, Sunshines.
…so we downloaded the free trial version of Word onto her mom’s computer. That should’ve been easy too, except that it took a little over an hour to do =..= We spent the time talking, taking quizzes, sending wacky pictures to Jim, and speaking in LOLCat. We made the time fun. Her Mom was driving me crazy because she kept referring back to a Wedding Etiquette book...and then once we finally got Word installed, it was the trial version, so I could open it and print it and look at it…but I couldn’t alter it >..< So finally, Reiko’s like, “This is how it is! And that’s how it’s staying!” so yeah. She got all her invitations printed. Of course, by then it was after nine =..= I was a tired puppy.
The next day was better. Well, the evening was. Scamp and I got to RP a bit, and since our days are numbered for that in WoW, it was a special occasion. So I got to relax a bit and just RP with Scamp, which is awesome. I know we won’t be able to do that as much without Yahoo messenger anymore. I’ve found the most preferable IM system is when I’m logged into Yahoo and I can chat with someone. It’s just more fun. I don’t really know exactly when I’ll be in tonight because Nicole’s grandmother died yesterday. Her wake is today, and we were all going to go over there and try to express our condolences together. I don’t know how long that usually takes or what’s entailed (never really having gone to a wake for the family before) so I’m not sure how long I’ll be.
Dad was a little upset. He found out that his company isn’t transferring him as quickly as he’d hoped. So he won’t be going to Brazil any time soon…he’s a little worried, because he had wanted to get my place started right away, but now he’s afraid that we’ll have to save up a few extra months before we can do that. I told him that I could be patient and I was content to wait. As long as we have a plan, I was happy. I don’t want to work the man into an early grave, after all.
Gosh I’m tired. I’m so glad it’s Friday. Sleeping in till 8 will be nice tomorrow. I can’t wait till next Friday though :D I actually went and got Reiko and My Twilight outfits done, and they look so awesome! I'm so pleased with them, and I can't wait till the 21st!
Well, I gotta go now. I’ll talk later, Sunshines.
The Ultimate Color Test |
 When you are at peace, you are: Giving and unselfish When you are moved to act, you are: Confident and optimistic When you are inspired, you are: Creative and productive When your life is perfectly balanced, you are: Philosophical and expressive Your life's purpose is: To find contentment |
As for the president...well, McCain wasn’t a spotless lamb, but he was the candidate I felt a tad bit closer to. Does that mean he’s my ideal? No. Just the closest choice I could make from what I did have to choose from. Now, Obama’s president...quite a mile-marker really. I’m certain some people are upset about that. Truthfully, I disagree with him on many levels, but he’s the authority now. Way I see it, he’ll either help or harm the country, but either way life’ll go on. Meh.
What a fiasco this morning. I decided to go in to work late and get my diver’s license renewed. Tomorrow would be the 30 day mark of when it needed to be renewed, and I really didn’t want to wait. I had thought, before, that I might be moved sooner, so I was sort of waiting till I could renew it in Arkansas...but that’s still half a month away. So, I drove on down to the DMV (hardest place in the world to find), and we got there...around 7:45, but they don’t open till 8. We waited and waited with about 2 dozen other people. Then we walk in and it says we must have proof of registration for all transactions. So, we go to the car and get that…only to realize that my proof of insurance expires this month. So! We go to State Farm…which...doesn’t open till 9. We went across the street to Burger King to wait. Did all that, took care of everything there and then went back to the DMV. Once you got it in was less than a 10 minute wait before I was serviced. Finally...Mom dropped me off at work, but by then it was 9:30. It was just a long and frustrating morning. Probably why I’m in such a ‘meh’ mood.
On a more exciting subject – for me at least – I finally got some contact from Kth. She finally got a scanner to show me the bases for the portraits I asked her to draw for me so very long ago. She’s been going through a few tough times as well, but now that she has free time, she could actually get around to focusing on the stuff I asked for. The base sketches are pretty sweet, so I can only imagine how awesome the finished products will be. They’re very realistic looking, and I’m very happy with them. I just can’t wait till she applies colors and they’re finished :D
But yeah..that’s all so far. I’ll talk later, Sunshines….if I can work up the enthusiasm.
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…..the clear soup at Zen’s is just so freakin’ awesome. There isn’t much to it. Just beef/onion broth with green onion and mushrooms, but it’s just so warm and soothing. It’s just so nice. I could eat it any time. That’s all I have to say about that.
Oh! So, remember how I got that printer? Yeah...yeah, I got it in, and I tried to fool with it for two weeks. TWO WEEKS! Well, I’d turn it on, and it would say “Paper Jam, clear paper and press Enter” well, I’d pretty much done just about everything shy of taking the dang thing apart piece by piece and putting it all back together. In fact, I hadn’t even put paper IN the paper try...so I took it back to Target and got my money back =..= I’m gonna order another one eventually...but. I’m gonna wait till more towards Christmas. I know it was supposed to be a Birthday present, so my Dad’s sort of upset that it didn’t work for me. I told him not to worry. I’d just wait till they got their next credit card statement, you know, make sure they didn’t owe a lot of money, and then order it. But this time, I’m ordering the 5300 version.. At least that’s one thing I don’t have to worry about packing up -..-
Now that I’ve finally got the basics of my scrapbooking down, I know that I need to focus on some of the more embellishing aspects of the craft. I mean, I’ve got all the pictures printed out and most of my supplies (I’ll need to get tons more cardstock, adhesive and a spare book tomorrow), so now I need to get some embellishments and page headers. The first page, I’ve decided to have one picture on it in the center of the page, which will tell the content of the scrapbook. But there are so many costumes for the cosplay sections that I want to have page headers, ya know? So, I either need to get some sort of decorative cardstock header type, or just get some peel-and-stick letters that I can use to form words at the top of the pages that begin certain sections. I’ll have to just look about and see what they have to offer. The theme colors are red and black (for the book and pages – all the cardstock that I’ve got the pictures on is different colors =..=), so if it’s just words and designs, I’ll have to be red...If I get a border to put words on, then it’ll just be black. It depends on what I want XD
Work has become a lot better. Now that everyone’s adjusted to the news, we’ve all gotten back to joking around with each other. I just hear a lot more of, “You see what you’ll be missing!” and “How are we gonna go on without you?” lately. But things have gone back to “normal”. I just have to start thinking about my soon-to-be lack of insurance and how to train someone for this job whenever they finally decide on someone. But things have gone back to being fun again – which is what I really wanted for my last few weeks. I saw these little “Desk Cones” at Books-A-Million. They’re like, construction work cones or men-at-work cones, but they’re tiny for a desk and they say things like “I haven’t had my coffee yet, don’t make me kill you.” And I want to get G a 2009 Maxine Desk calendar, because we both have enjoyed Maxine so much. I figure it’ll be great parting gifts :D
Meh...Gotta get back to work now =..= Later, Sunshines!
What Your Love of M&M's Says About You |
 You are energetic and full of inspiration. You never slow down, and you're constantly leaving people and ideas behind. You are a true visionary. You are constantly thinking about the future. You love living, and you stay flexible. You're open to going wherever life takes you. |
Power, running water and internet…we have that, but no cable still. Some people have gotten it back, but my cable’s pretty much been out since the 1st. There’s nothing to really do about it, because the crews are working as hard as they can and as fast as they can...it’s just an annoying dilemma. I totally missed the first episode of Supernatural, and I’m hesitant to buy it on iTunes...I bought all of season 3 on iTunes, and even if it made it easy for me to catch the episodes I missed, I still was a little less enthusiastic about the 3rd seasons box set when I actually got it. I haven’t gotten the second season of Heroes yet either (trying to save money) either…I know I’m going to miss the third season opener – or at least I’m preparing myself for that since I don’t think I’ll have cable by then. /sigh. what a mess these hurricanes are.
I finally placed an order with Amazon.com the other day (I had a $24 gift certificate too…which…I don’t understand, but thanks to whoever got that for me!). So now, my list of gifts has included Scamp’s Birthday and Christmas presents (which I’ve had for a long time now), Part of Dad’s Christmas present, Jen-Lyn’s birthday and Christmas presents (I got more than one, so I just figure I’ll call them both) and Chibi’s Birthday Present. I still need to buy Christmas presents for Mom, Chibi and Reiko...But, I’m working on it.
Big dent in my money – Reiko called me yesterday saying she’d found a shop in New Orleans (or somewhere) that had her perfect wedding dress and perfect bride’s maid dresses. I needed to call them, before 4 pm that day, and give them my measurements in order to not have a rush order and pay $40 more. Oh, and of course, it’s my job to throw the bachelorett party…which would be just fine if that meant that I had to invite girls over, decorate my house, and put on Supernatural, but I have this bad feeling that Reiko will want alcohol involved, and I’m not up on buying booze so…yeah. I may just buy the decorations I was looking at and tell everyone BYOB if you must. Pull out the futon and air mattresses and let everyone sleep over…….oh, also, I’m designing her wedding invitations. I’ve done it before, but never someone who was so important to me. I really hope I can give her what she wants.
Dad finally came in from offshore. What a fiasco that was. I’ve never hated a company so much in my whole life. He had been told to drive to Lafayette, LA when Lafayette was being evacuated thanks to Gustav, right? Well, they rerouted him to Houston, TX, and flew him out to Mexico from there. When he come in, they brought him to New Orleans, then fueled up the plain again to fly him to Memphis, TN (Quoi?) and then back to Lafayette, LA, where he had to catch a hot-shot drive to Houston, TX………….WTF, People!? Seriously! Is that not crazy? He finally called me around 10 pm Monday night saying that he was safely at his truck in Houston, and that he’d be driving over to my place. I told him I’d leave the door unlocked for him. It’s a good thing I did, because he didn’t get in till about 3 am.
He spent the next two days helping me buy some groceries (my fridge was virtually bare), mowing the lawn, fixing busted pipes, and mending the roof to both our houses. I mentioned to him about this printer I’ve been having my eye on. It’s the Kodak EasyShare 5500, which I’d seen advertised one day. Sure it’s a great printer and everything, but what really got me interested in it was the fact that the black ink cartridge is $9.99 and the color is like $14.99 – together you can get them for $22.99. And that’s an amazing savings right there. Plus it’s a superior printing product. So, after I’d told him about it (Because I knew Mom needed a new printer too) he says, “Well, you’ve got my credit card. Why don’t you just put it on the credit card and buy that?” So that’s my birthday present from my parents. Thanks, Mom and Dad!
A couple of nights ago, I read a lot of the Twilight saga before bed. Then I had a dream about it...and it wouldn’t go away. So, I decided to write a Twilight fan fic…Which is both wonderful and terrible at the same time. If only I could channel my inspiration and just work on my original story! But, alas! I must write within a world of hot vampires and werewolves…../sarcasm. woe unto me. I’m surprised at how quickly it’s coming though...maybe because I’m making myself get into the characters and stare at the computer screen…really flushing out what I want from this story and who the characters are and all that jazz. I have 2 chapters and one prologue...it’s all small stuff…but then again that last little fic I wrote about my and my cousin’s WoW characters was small too….maybe I’m expecting too much of myself. Maybe I should focus on smaller chapters. /shrug. who knows. Either way, at least my creativity is going and not dead.
Work’s been work….it has actually been somewhat bearable if only because it’s all-consuming. I work on a mountain of files and don’t notice what time it is for hours. I find myself saying things like, “Whoa…it’s already 12 (3, 5)?” It’s actually pretty awesome. Oh, and you know what else is awesome? For the week of the 1st through the 5th (you know, when Gustav hit and power was out and all that?) my boss is paying us without taking away from our vacation/sick time. How cool is that? My bosses rock.
….what else is there to talk about? Hmm….well, I finally got back on WoW the other night…well, night before too. I got together with my cousin and we did some RP. But last night, I took Agaruwen to ….wherever she was before I stopped playing =..= I don’t even remember the name of the place! I might’ve played for about an hour...just doing the quests she had and all. But without anyone there to talk to, it’s sort of boring, so...it wasn’t long before I called it a night. Still. At least I’m playing a bit.
…Kinda feel a little pleased with myself. I woke up this morning, put on a pot of coffee, swept my kitchen, washed the dishes and set the clothes to washing….now, I really should go and have some breakfast =..=
Later, Sunshines.
What Your Purple Umbrella Says About You |
 When faced with adversity, you remain together and graceful. You are very balanced, and it's hard for you to let yourself get too down. You are brainy and philosophical. It's hard for you to lose your broad perspective on life. You accept things as they are. You don't try to change anything that can't be changed. On a rainy day: you should spend the day reading |
OK…what else happened over the weekend? Well, it rained….a lot! Which is normal at this point, but it sorta needs to stop now. I have Lake Pontchartrain all around my house. Of course, rain is perfect weather to clean house to, so I really didn’t mind so much…except when I had to actually go out to do something and ended up doing the Louisiana Shuffle (you know, when every piece of ground is either soggy mud or a puddle).
I’ve pretty much decided to make two copies of my Mecha Con pics and make a scrapbook for Reiko and myself. Of course, I don’t really know much about Scrapbooking, but after talking with Mom a bit over the weekend, I found out that my Aunt Batty knows how. So, I’m definitely going to be consulting her. I get the idea of printing out the pics and putting them on card stock and writing something clever in and arranging them on the page with embellishments here and there (but nothing too crowded), but what I’m not sure about is how it fits into the book =..= It’s the practical side of things that I can’t wrap my head around. I’ll go ahead and make mine first though, that way I’ll have it all worked out by the time I get to Reiko’s and her’s will be better ^..^ I did go by Hobby Lobby just to see if it’d inspire anything, I have a few ideas…but nothing definite. I’m still unable to get past that initial confusion =..=
Chibi came over Sunday. She finally made it to my house around 5:20, but she came bearing pizza, so I didn’t mind so much. I finally got her to see the whole first season of Supernatural and we even started in on the 2nd season. We only have one more episode, and the whole first disc of the second season will be watched...only 5 more to go and she’ll have the whole 2nd season down too! I know I’m not going to be seeing her for quite some time...so she’ll have to come and spend several days with me in order to catch up once I finally own the 3rd (and eventually 4th considering how slow we’re going with this) season(s). I also showed her the first disc of Reiko and my Mecha Con adventure. It was amusing to show her the pictures.
I brought the puma in this morning for the service. I asked how long it would take and when I could come and pick it up, and the guy said, “It depends on what we find with the brakes.” =..= Which, is exactly the opposite of what I want to hear. A part of me is slightly panicked at the notion of not knowing (as it usually is), but I keep reassuring myself that even if it does take more than the day that I allotted for it, I do have a few people that don’t mind toting me to and from work. Still, it’s just one of those uncertain incontinences. Still, I hope my baby’s just in need of a quick fix. And..I hope it isn’t too expensive.
Dear, God. Please let this work day be over quickly, and let my car be fixed by the time it is. K, thx, luvya, bia!
So, tonight, Chibi’s going to come over too. Or at least, she’d better since she made off with volumes 5-9 or my W Juliet. If I can just pick up my car, I’ll call her after I’ve gotten the car and we’ll meet at my place. If not…well, I’ll just be giving her a call one way or the other. I think she might be coming over tomorrow night too…or we might go out to eat at Zen’s. I told her about it and she agreed that I really must show her what it’s all about. I know Dad’s coming in on Wednesday and we’re going to my Aunt Carolyn’s for supper and then to church (note to self: bring a change of clothes to work). So that means RP with Scamp gets pushed back to the latter half of the week (if you can call it that). And I know her beau is coming to visit sometime (I think she said the 24th), so I’m pretty certain we won’t have as much time as we’d like. Still, it’s always fun when we can manage it.
I guess that’s…everything. Or everything I can think of right now. I’ll talk later, Sunshines.
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 Your Personal Style: Modern and simple. You like clothes to accentuate who you are, not overwhelm you. Your Ideal Wedding: A small ceremony at an old church with a beautiful flower garden Your Philosophy on Marriage: You can have a deep commitment without marriage. It's only a piece of paper. Your Perfect Marriage: Simply loving each other a little more every day |
So hi. How’s everyone been? That’s great. Not that I’d actually get a reply here or anything. But, I hope I’d be told if anything weren’t going ok.
Things have been going ok for me too. For the first time since the gathering, I actually talked to my Twin. It all started...I think it was Tuesday night. I got the Mortal Kombat – Annihilation CD soundtrack in. I went about my day, showered, watched Bones (which was awesomness, btws) and then got ready for bed. I popped the new CD into my radio, intending to give it a little listen before bed. ZOMG…it was wonderfulness. I was so happy with the 80’s Techno/Rockish stuff that littered the CD, I ended up calling all my friends (that’s right, all 4 of them) and leaving voice-mails with each one. I and my goofy self happily told them that I was so effing happy about this new CD with its wonderful 80’s techno mastery that I could cry. Of course, by the time my twin called me back I had realized that my phone was about to die, so I shut it off and went to bed, settling for listening to my new CD with my headphones. I called her back the next day on my lunch break and we just talked. It’s been forever since I haven’t had access to the internet like I usually do.
...Not that it’s stopped Reiko from IMing me on Yahoo while I’m at work...when she saw that I was checking my mail, she messaged me, and we actually talked for a little while…funky no? Yeah.
Also, Dad and I finally got the little lantern lights up in my house. They look great and I adore them so much. Even if two of them are broken =..= It’s ok. They look great.
Also, I contacted Kth-dragon, who I’d met at the Gathering. She’s an artist that I bought a print from. She’s really great at animal anatomy and making things look real and functional, so I thought that I should go and ask her to do some of my more complex animal-ish drawings. I already sent 4 descriptions to her so we’ll see how that goes. I’m very excited and optimistic.
Also, if anyone wants to see pictures of my house, I have them over at my photo buck. Go look here. I’ll update that as I feel the need to. I still have a lot of work to do in the backroom/computer room, but for now it just has the fire bead-door over it and it’s a junk room.
I guess that’ll be all from me now, beings as my lunch break is soon-to-be over, and I’ve nothing else really worth talking about. So, catch you later, Sunshines.
What Your Handwriting Says About You |
 You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress. You range from very outgoing to very shy. You are a shapeshifter who is very versatile. You adapt well, and you look at things from many angles. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well. You are a free thinker. You are unique, open minded, and artistic. You don't care what other people think. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous. |
Oh, I heartily agree ^..^
Left Brain: Tell me about it.
Right Brain: Oh, you two are just being cynics. This could be fun!
MM: Um, Newsflash: I don't have a love.
Right Brain: That's not true! You have your parents! You love them very much! And your cousin!
Left Brain: I don't think they're referring to that type of love...Sounds more like a One true Love thingy.
Right Brain:...Did you just say 'thingy'?
Left Brain: …yes.
Right Brain: That's awesome.
MM: Ok! Can we focus here!
Left Brain: Sorry.
Right Brain: Right! So...love...but love is so many different things! You can take it to mean a bunch of things! You can use that.
MM: Eugh, I don't have the energy for this =_=
Left Brain: You really should've thought of that when you entered into this contest.
MM: You keep reminding me of that. And it's not helping the current situation. In fact it never helps any situation!
Left Brain: Indeed. Well, let's see what we can do with this. We've established that you don't want to do family members because even though you do love them, it might not be the type of love identified with this week's entry.
Right Brain: I still think it'd be cool to do your parents.
MM: Look, loving your parents is seen more as an obligation, and let's face it, my parents are much cooler than some others. I can't just say "I love my parents because they roxors my soxs!"
Right Brain:..You just did.
Left Brain: Can we focus here?
Right Brain: I love the word 'roxors'.
MM: It is fun to write and say, isn't it?
Left Brain: Helloooo? Love!
MM: I don't have a love. I mean, I love in ways, but I don't have a love.
Right Brain: Roxors!
Left Brain: Dammit, RB! Focus!
RB: Sorry…
Left Brain: It's ok. Now let's just think and get through this.
MM: …Right. Because that's worked so well before.
RB: >.>
Left Brain: I'm not sure I like your tone.
RB: I know! Let's listen to some music! That usually helps to inspire!
Left Brain: It does?
MM: Sometimes.
Left Brain: Well, anything's worth a try at this point.
RB: Yay!
****15 Minutes Later - Nickelback's streaming from the Speakers****
RB: *sings* And I'm paaaaacin' by the phone!
MM: *sings* 'Cause I haaaaate to be alone!
Left Brain: This is stupid.
RB: *sings* And you're out there with him somewhere, and just about to kiss! Lord, I wanna be the someone that you're with!
Left Brain: I just don't get it. It's not helping either.
MM: I suppose it isn't…but it is catchy. That you can't deny.
Left Brain: I would never try to.
RB: You're such a party pooper, Lefty.
Lefty: Indeed.
RB: Ok, so Nickleback isn't helping...maybe something else? Oh! I know! Rascal Flats! That always puts me in a whimsical mood!
Lefty: Just what we needed.
RB: Where do you suppose they got the name 'Nickelback' from?
Lefty: ...Who knows. It's better than 'Motivated Grass'.
MM: Hey! I liked that name!
Lefty: Only because you made it up...
MM: …well...
RB: What about listening to Skindred?
Lefty: Even I know that there is nothing loving about Skindred.
MM: Yeah…Skindred's great for writing fighting scenes though.
Lefty: That I will concede to.
RB: Hmmmm….Maybe…you should….ohhh! Your Twin's online! You could Warcraft!
MM: Yeah!
Lefty: …how does that help us? Besides…your twin is ALWAYS online.
RB: ..well, it'll relieve the stress of having to come up with something...
Lefty: Right, and she'll be MMORPGing till 11 then be way too exhausted to write. Great idea.
MM: Uh, guys?
RB: I guess…. You're such a meanie some times. It's affecting you too. You're way more wrinkly than I am.
Lefty: that's because I'm more mature than you are.
RB: *stomps foot* I am mature!
MM: Hello?
Lefty: The fact that you did that while stomping your foot is so great.
RB: Just because you're an obsessive perfectionist!
Lefty: This coming from the disjointed dreamer!
MM: I officially know what it feels like to be a prisoner of one's own mind...
RB: HA! You couldn't do a thing without me! I'm the one that's giving you ideas all the time!
Lefty: Oh please! All you can come up with is jumbled dreams. I put structure into them!
RB: Oh yeah!? Well, if you're so good at this, you do it! *stomps off*
Lefty: Fine! *stomps off*
MM: …I have a headache >.<
****20 minutes later****
RB:…..M'sorry.
Lefty: *sigh* me too...
MM: There's just nothing for it you two. Let's face it. I may love, but when it comes to having a love, I got nothing.
RB: That's not true! There's something else you could do for this week's entry!
Lefty: …dare I ask?
RB: Just write.
MM:…hmm.
( Ai )
Yesterday, after hastily posting that last entry, I did managed to glance at my friends page. Unfortunately, it was almost time to go, and I knew that I wouldn’t be able to do a thorough reading as much as I would enjoy it. In what little time I had left, I did manage to copy and print out the last entries of ![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wotcherscamp and rattgirl . I didn’t get the chance to read it till later that night, but it made me feel more connected...even though I’m not -_-
I finally got my PS2 in yesterday afternoon. I was surprised at how very small and lightweight it is. So, I glanced at the instruction manual and thought I had a general idea of how to hook it up. I set it on the shelf that holds my VCR and proceeded to try and move the TV so that I could see the ports in the back...The shelf that my loving father put up for my TV, is scrawny and weak. It’s bowing in the center (where the TV is), and it moves with every little nudge I give the TV! Of course this has me frightened that it’ll fall or break the shelf in two if I try to fool with it. All that boils down to that I do have my PS2...but I’ve no real way of playing it as I can’t figure out how to install it without moving the TV. There were some of those Audio/Video ports in the front of the TV, but I tried to plug it into those and still, it didn’t work -_- I am defeated. I’ve decided to ask my Dad to make another shelf. One more sturdy that doesn’t look like it’s about to break. Of course, he’s two weeks from coming in, so I’ll just have to do without till he does come in. I might try hooking it up to the TV in the living room, if only to experiment and see if I actually know which cables to hook up to which ports O.o It’s been ages since I had a gaming system, and I’ve forgotten how to hook them up.
I also received the other package yesterday and though I did have a rather large sulk-fit at not being able to install the PS2 properly, I consoled myself with Pride and Prejudice, which was almost better than the first go-around. I find I’m more enamored with it now than I was when I first watched it, if that makes any sense at all. Some things just keep getting better as they go. I also skimmed through Races of Destiny, my new D&D supplement book. It’s very interesting and I find the only problem I have with it is that there just isn’t enough put into it ^_^ I also received The Mists of Avalon on DVD, which is actually a gamble that I took. I’ve never seen this movie, but I have wanted to for a very long time. I’ve yet to watch it, but I think I’ll try doing that tonight if I get the chance. Has anyone else seen this, and if so what were your opinions of the movie (and/or the book if you like)?
I didn’t get to sleep till around 1 last night and for two specific reason. One being that I had told Mom I would wash the permanent press, and had nearly forgotten it. I knew I couldn’t just wash it and get away with that so I waited till the washer was done, and then left the clothes in the dryer. Of course Mom didn’t really like that very much beings as she’s never satisfied with dried clothes unless they are immediately hung after they’ve finished drying =_= The second reason for my being up so late would be that I had printed out a list of Magic and the spells these different magics use, and then I had gone through it and edited it more to my liking (added and revising and such). As I had no internet coupled with plenty of time and a reason for staying up longer than I would (the clothes in the washer), I decided to go through the old document which was on this jump drive, and change the format to what I came up with on the edited paper. I am happy to report that the result looks much more organized and unified, even though there isn’t nearly enough on it. I was thinking of posting the table that I’d made in
ruby_unicorn , but I don’t know how much of a headache that’ll be what with it being in a huge table and all. The table is formatted in Word and it would probably be a great big pain to try formatting it in html. In fact, I confess that I’ve no earthly notion how to make a table in scratch html. Before long, I’ll be going through D&D and EQ RPG books to look at what types of spells they have there. Looking at their spells always helps me to think of something. That’s all for now. I’ll see if I can check in later in the day. Ja!
Also, Sunday I’d received word that my cousin, Gill (![[info]](https://stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
wotcherscamp) would be coming for a visit Tuesday when my Aunt Lane came. However, all those plans died when we heard that she and her family fell sick Monday =.= Figures. Oh well. She’ll just have to get better soon so that she’ll be able to come over at the end of the month! Mom and Dad are talking about leaving for Tennessee for Thanksgiving, so if she could come then, it’d be really cool. I still haven’t found out if we have that Friday off, but I know we have that Thanksgiving day off. It falls to the people down-stairs really. If they have the day off, then Mrs. Ellen will give us the day off. I think that if we all end up asking if we can take that day off, she’ll probably let us do so. Not like anyone else’ll be working.
Voted this morning...that was cool. They have a new electronic, touch-voting. They have a board that has all the voting options on it, and there are green X’s lit up behind them. You just press ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ to cast your vote and there’s a button at the bottom that says “Cast Vote” and you’re done. S’really cool.
Oh! And I was so excited! Last night, the computer went off at 9 PM, and I took my pills and wrote till I got sleep and/or till my back started aching. I write sitting up, or really hunched over in bed, so it’s more of a strain on my back, but my back and the sleeping pills keep me from staying up too late with it. I was excited because the system seems to actually be working.
I guess that’s all that there is. The urge to post just hit me here on my lunch break so I decided to go with it. If I don’t...I probably won’t post at all.
Well, I guess that’ll be all. I had to take some sinus pills after I got up this morning, and I’m really getting groggy. Not to mention that I’ve developed this chest-rattling cough too so I’ve had enough cough drops to choke a horse all ready. Hope this isn’t an omen of how the winter season will be. Either way. Later!
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Pensive
Well, today’s been nice. Really. I mean, it’s the first day I haven’t had to get up at 5 a.m. I feel great! Well. Ok, not great, but as great as I get to getting great. Yesterday was bad =.= I woke up…hell I don’t even remember when I went to sleep. But I know I actually got up around 3:45 ish. I felt so terrible I actually called in sick to church. I don’t do that unless it’s really bad and let me assure you that it was.
For some odd reason, I decided to rewatch The Lord of the Rings...and when I say rewatch, I mean watch everything. Not just the movies but the extra extended stuff too, because I don’t have enough points on my nerd card /sarcasm. I tell you what, watching the first of the two bonus discs always makes me thing about what I’d do if. I’ve always said I’d rather do an animated movie rather than live-action movie. But now that the issue has been discussed, I’d much rather a live action movie. And then they got into the whole ‘armor’ and ‘weapons’ and ‘costumes’ section of this DVD and I was like “Hmm, well this race of characters is like this because of this” and then I kinda stepped outside myself and was like “Whoa…” It’s like I have amnesia or something until I start talking about it or am asked about it. It’s all in my head, but I don’t know it’s there until I actually start vocalizing it. It’s weird =.= Well...maybe not weird, but just not quite normal. Normal people don’t sit around saying things like that. Not that I want to be normal. Then again, now that I’ve found out Gillian’s got the same sort of dilemmas, I don’t feel so lost. If I didn’t know any better, I’d think we were starting our own buddy system here.
Speaking of Gillian, I feel awful because I haven’t e-mailed her back yet. I’ve been able at any time to do so, but I just can’t get my enthusiasm on here. On the other hand, I cannot wait to get her letter in. She said she’d be willing to draw my characters for me, since I can’t draw a decent straight line (I kid you not), so I sent Kerani and of course Ruby as the first two. And now all the other characters seem to have woken up and are all clamoring for a turn. Alex has been the most aggressive (which isn’t too surprising given her nature). But it goes without saying that if you have a visual of Ruby you have to have one of Alex too. And of course the list just keeps getting bigger. If you do Alex then you have to do Garnet and Amythest and Golem and of course let’s take a break from the Three and go over to Rexa (you have to do Rexa!) and Calladi, and then Damaris and Kuroneko, and Keibo, and that’s just a few of the female characters. I suppose it’s because the characters have never been so clear in my head before, and Gillian’s such a damn good artist that simply the possibility excites me.
And then I have to remind myself that I’m still in the real world and I need to push that all back down till I can focus on it. /shrugs Oh well. I’m off to watch CSI: Miami with Mom. G’night!
Contemplative
Ok, so today was work and Y and a couple of things in between. Work’s was fun once Lacey got there. She informed me that she finally saw The Return of the King and she loved it and she was going to have to buy it so that she could watch it whenever she wanted to. She also said that the night before, when she was reading to her son he asked her, “Mom, why didn’t you name me Frodo?” all wistful. We both laughed so hard at that. She says he’s become a bit obsessed about Frodo and loves him to death.
Also, I think I may’ve created a monster. But I don’t remember if I talked about it or not already, so I’m gonna just go ahead and (re)explain everything. About a week ago Lacey and Linda got an e-mail from the boss-lady saying that they needed to make folders in their Outlook Express thingies to hold things that they thought were important, that way it wouldn’t clogg up their Index boxes. Well both of them confessed that they didn’t know how. So, that was one of the days that Linda had to leave early (either a Monday or a Thursday), so I said ‘ just leave your computer on, and I’ll fix it for you.’ Well, while they were walking out Lacey said “Oh, and put a nice Vin Diesel background or maybe an Orlando Bloom screen saver on there.” And Linda said, “Yeah, give me a nice picture too!” and they left. Well, as soon as I’d fixed the folder issue, I went and searched ‘Orlando Bloom’, ‘Vin Diesel’ and ‘Matthew Mcconaughey’ respectively and put a bunch of there nice pictures up in Lacey’s My Pictures file. Then I switched her desktop to a Vin Diesel background and set her screen saver to the ‘My Picture Slideshow’. Then I wrote “Merry Christmas” on a piece of paper and left it on her desk. The next day, I’m filing in the filing room when I hear loud giggling. Lacey pokes her head in and says “Thanks, Darlin’! That was the best early Christmas gift ever!” Of course, once Nicole was gone Lacey asked me to do the same thing for her only with Tim McGraw. So I showed her how to do it and now...she’s got so many pictures up there on her thing. I’m thinking, one day our bosses are gonna walk in and see pictures like that up there and wonder...what have they been doing? But for now, it’s a lot of fun to tease her about the need to breath and not ogle her monitor.
Also, when I got back to work after lunch, Lacey asked if I wrote a book. I said that I was trying to write one. She asked what type it was and I told her. She asked if she could read what I had written so far, and I said ‘Sure but there’s just the Prologue.’ And then it got into a whole discussion about maybe making the book into a movie (one of my biggest and most fantastical dreams) and her being the star, and of course Orlando Bloom would have to be her love interest since that’s going to be her baby’s daddy.…that girl has such a rich fantasy life. But, I printed out the Prologue and I will be bringing it for her to read over tomorrow. It probably sucks, but it’s all I have so far. I have plenty of ideas in my head, I’m just not quite sure where I want to go with them...and I’m not so certain that Orlando Bloom would fit very well with my vision of Topez. Although I simply must have Vin Diesel as the voice of a dragon or something. That would be wicked cool...
Dad and I went swimming at the Y after we ate supper. We didn’t’ swim for long because my ear was hurting and Dad did have to get to bed soon since he’s going to work tonight. And we had to stop by the grocery store to get Mom some things, but we ended up forgetting to get me some cough drops -.- Figures. Well, he kept complaining about the price and how late it was and on and on and on. So anyway. I’m exhausted. I think it’s from all the time we spent in the Y’s hot tub. They say you can only spend 10 minutes at a time in it, but the so called life guards never actually enforce that. But anyway, we got all the stuff Mom needs to make herself a nice soup, and since she's feeling so bad, it's the only thing that doesn't tear her stomach up. She does have an appointment at the hospital tomorrow to see a neurologist or something like that. I hope she gets some relief.
Oh well. I really want to write back to Gill, but I’m barely making it through this entry. And 5:30 always comes early =.=’ Tomorrow is Friday, and thank God for small favors. Goodnight, mina.
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MM
Annoyed at myself...
I’ve done it again. /sigh...I went over to the Painted Ponies web site and took another gander. Whenever that happens I end up spending money. I just put Bert up on the shelf next to my TV for the time being. And I was thinking he looked a little...well...lonesome. I mean he was all by him self. So I added the vase my Aunt gave me and a few of my little sand critters. But I kinda figured he still looks out of place.
In other news – I actually wrote another poem. So that means there’s actually a poem tag now. Not that I intend to keep writing them. This one just came to me...about as spontaneously as the first one did. Ruby came to me as I was falling asleep one night. I woke up and just started writing and it all came out right here. Then I just typed it up a little later. This one came to me while I was at work. Standing near the copy machine no less. I just can’t repeating the one part that was consistent the whole time, and sure enough it all came out right when I got home. I wish it’d happen more often...Wonder if I could put that up on deviantART...
Oh well. I gotta get up at 5 tomorrow, so I’m turning in early...or at least, I’m trying to =_= ‘Night.
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MM
Anxious
Wow. Today’s been a roller-coaster ride if ever there was one. It started off great, then was mildly annoying to absolutely painful, to surprisingly peaceful and fun to slightly anxious...But I don’t want to touch on the beginning or even some parts of the middle. Too weird and depressing and angsty and...emo. Can’t have that. So, without further ado, the good stuff.
I’d pretty much convinced myself that Max could, in fact, understand human speech until tonight. The other day, it was about to rain and Mom told me that she’d taken him out but he hadn’t done anything. So I took him out into the yard and I said, “Max, it’s about to rain. I understand you’re particular and all, but you should probably take care of business now. Lord only knows how long the rain’ll last and you certainly don’t want to have to use it in a mess like that.” Max promptly sniffed around in a circle and did his business. Both businesses actually... Then, I’m walking him around the yard this afternoon, and Rex (my Uncle Charles and Aunt Doris’s dog) sees him and of course starts barking. Max looks up and quickly becomes distracted. I roll my eyes and say, “Pay attention to what you’re doing.” And he returns to his sniffing and continues on. Seriously. That’s when I got to wondering about this dog. Tonight, Mom’s at prime timers and I’m laying in bed with my door open so that I can see Max while I watch TV. I hear some crumpling and sniffing and I realize he’s gone under my bed. I say, “Max, I don’t want you under my bed.” He emerges from my bed and looks over at me as if to say, “oh really? I’m sorry...” Of course, later tonight he ruined it when I calmly asked him if he wanted to go outside. He just stared at me blankly, but then when I went to get his leash he was all prance. Totally broke the ‘he can understand me’ spell -_-
Ok, so the thing that has me so anxious tonight...I kinda wrote a letter and an e-mail...to Ellen. Ellen DeGeneres that is...I addressed the letter to her Crazy Dream department, but the e-mail will be logged under questions. It was basically me introducing myself and then asking for help with writing my book and making a movie about said book. Although I’d want to make my movie first then put out the book. I’m sure you all know my theory on that whole thing so I won’t bother mentioning it. At the end of the request I admitted that it was a bit far-fetched and if it was too much, would she mind helping me figure out how to copyright my original ideas like the idea for my MM’s Jellies stationary as a consolation. I figure I have nothing to loose by trying, right?
So the letter isn’t even sent, and I’m already anxious and freaked. I really hope I can forget about it quickly so that I won’t spend too much time agonizing over a response. It’s just that I feel like I’m treading water, and I don’t know how to move forward. I don’t feel like I have the energy to move forward on my book because I can’t summon the energy to work on it and be the responsible adult that my parents want me to be. Things were so much easier when I was in college. Why is that? Why was it so easy for me to dream up things in college and now that I’m working they’re so much harder? I did most of my character work in college. I dreamed up the thousands of characters that inhabit my world and gave them names and colors and voices, but I can’t put life into them now. I feel useless and restless...but I don’t know what to do to help myself and I don’t know who to ask to help me...
Here I said I didn’t want this to turn into an emo/complaint entry and it seems to have done so anyway. But it’s my journal. So there. You could’ve stopped reading a while ago (and you probably have -.-). But anyway, that was today. I think I’ll go watch more of Batman till I get too tired to stay awake. G’night.
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MM
PS: mmhhmmmm….Batman...#___#
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