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Wow. So, it’s been a coupl’a days since I’ve gotten the chance to make a decent post. Let’s see what all is going on in my life since last time.

You know, something happened on Tuesday that was so odd that I really wanted to tell someone about it, but then I realized that a lot of people were squeamish, and wouldn’t appreciate said information. Because, it was a pretty disgusting event, but it was so weird that I really just wanted to make sure someone besides me knew about it. I’ve decided that this bizarre event is going to remain under wraps, if only to spare you from gagging.

Oh, and Scamp will be coming over this weekend, but she’ll be coming on the 11th...which is the same day my parents have to leave. She’s going to see 300, so I really can’t fault her for that. I’m just happy that she’s coming over. Mom was asking what we planned on eating while they were gone, and I said we could probably eat out or just make due with what we have at home. She said she’s go grocery shopping before they left so the house would be stocked.

Oh, and that camcorder that I was gonna buy at Radio Shack? Yeah, that’s a thing of the past. Lacey did a little price comparison shopping for me, and found this Sony Camcorder at Best Buy. Same price (even cheaper if the sale still applies when I go to pick the thing up), only a more advanced model. It’s not an “In store only” product, so if they don’t have it in the store, I can always order it.

Also, in other news, I’ve gone ahead and pulled out of

therealljidol. I find that I’m spinning my wheels in way too many directions, and I really want to buckle down and focus on writing my book. So, I’m still watching and reading, but I’m an observer now instead of a participant. Oddly enough, I’ve managed to write a few more things the minute the pressure came off. Funny how that works.

Well, I suppose that’s all for now. I’m gonna finish my lunch and then get back to work. Later, sunshines!

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTJ)

Your personality type is logical, uncompromising, independent, and nonconformist.

Only about 3% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 4% of all men.
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Judging.

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Yaviel Isilmiel

Current Mood: full
Current Location: Work

Ok…so, this week’s

therealljidol post is, and I quote: “omg y do u tipe so funy???? lol netsp34k n lj: A Cross-Cultural Study of Internet-based Linguistics and Their Implications On This Social Networking Website” ….I must admit, my brain tends to shut down when confronted with poor grammar and netspeak =.= Which, I must also add, is very odd since I always use slang and abbreviations. I feel that if I type the same way that I talk, it will convey more of myself in my message. So I’m not afraid to type out ‘gonna’ instead of ‘going to’ if it’s really more what I’d actually say. Not to mention I am all for time saving acronyms such as OMG, LOL etc. What does annoy me is when I’m talking to you in an instant message and after I’ve said typed in three different messages, and you’ve replied back with ‘lol!’ each time. At that point, I just stop wanting to say anything to you, because really it’s all fillers between your lol’s. The first part of the sentence bothers me if only because things are spelled wrong and all in lower case. Netspeak or Leetspeak (n3tsp34k & l33tsp34k r3$p3c+iv3ly) drive me right past the border of borderline and off the cliffs of insanity. Not a good thing.

Let me just break this down and try to be as simple as possible. I originally thought that the only reason people would type ‘y’ for ‘why’ and ‘u’ for ‘you’ (etc. etc.) was because they were lazy or they didn’t know how to type properly. Either way it was slightly aggravating but tolerable. At the very least, I can understand that without too much of a fuss. Netspeak drives me mad because it takes forever to type and even longer to decipher.

I’ve always believed that if you’re smart, you take the time to convey your thoughts articulately. There’s someone that I’ve known for a few short years, and I respect him because he is intellectual and thorough. He thinks before he talks and checks his sources before he makes statements. That’s smart. But then, he sent me an e-mail, and I was shocked to read, “I hope u get 2 feeling better, we'll b praying 4 u!!!”... ohmigawd, waterfalls?(1). I was thinking to myself that this person is genuine and articulate, but if I didn’t know him in person, I’d wouldn’t think that because he isn’t presenting himself that way. Does it affect my opinion of him now? No. But I think it will cause him to be lost in translation for others who have more rigid standards.

Bottom Line: People have problems getting their true intentions across when they’re standing in a room talking to you, and that emotion is taken away when it comes to things like print. You can’t make it difficult for someone to understand you and then be upset when they don’t want to take the time to listen to what you have to say. I feel that without good grammar and good presentation, you can never be sure if someone will take you seriously enough or if they will receive your message. Being a writer, I constantly comb over all of my words, hoping that each one is just the right one to convey what it is I’m trying to express. I stress over grammar, presentation and format because in truth, I sometimes feel as though I’ve no idea if I’m presenting what I want to present accurately. In the end, all I can do is the maximum to present my words to you and hope you choose to overlook whatever errors I may make (because believe me, I always will).

I use shortcuts, and I make mistakes. I use slang because I feel that it takes what would be bland writing and spices it up with a bit of myself. S’not like it’s too hard to understand, and it does give me a bit of individuality. And just because you’re smart doesn’t mean you have to go and loose yourself in text. I also try to insert little tricks that help convey moods...Heck, sometimes, use things like “/sarcasm” to make sure you know I’m being sarcastic; or, I’ll use little faces like this: ^.^ to let you know I’m happy (or >.> suspicious / ¬.¬ annoyed / =.= tired / -.- embarrassed / ^.~ winking at you). We all use little tricks to make sure that we’re understood. But I always try to work to make sure that behind the typos and tricks, the message is heard…I feel that I shouldn’t have to expect anything less from anyone else. And netspeak and botched spelling doesn’t make whoever chooses to use it dumb or lazy or aggravating, but it does decrease the chase I’ll choose to give you my time.

That’s my story...and I’m stickin’ with it ^___^ Thanks for y’time and consideration, and ya’ll have a lovely day now ^.~

Yaviel Isilmiel

(1) Waterfalls – Refers to a private joke between friends. When reading an entry with ‘wtf’ in it, a friend commented that whenever she saw that she thought of ‘waterfalls’ because they were so pretty and it had the wtf in the word. So we agreed that instead of saying ‘wtf’ when we’re confused and want to ask that question we ask one another ‘waterfalls?’

Current Mood: hopeful

therealljidol topic: What do you like best about where you live right now? What do you miss the most about a place you've left behind?

/thinks.………………/sighs. Let’s see how to go about this then. Perhaps it’d be best to explain my living arrangements and then take it piece by piece. I’ve lived all my life in this one town. I’m so far south in South Louisiana, I might be able to sell you what will one day be beach-front property. I’ve seen this town go from boring and normal, to over-crowded and interesting. I have always lived with my parents (Raymone {65} & Clara {56}), who dote on me, and I do dote on them as well. I was taught by their example that showing consideration and affection is most important in relationships. There have been times when my older brother (Thomas {36}) has been in the picture as far as living with us goes, but this is usually, and thankfully, temporary. Our home sits at the front of 2 acres of property, with a whole acre or so of space. On the back of the property sits our rent house. It is a small A-framed house that I hope to live in by the end of the year (and I almost always refer to as ‘the Nexus’).

What do you like best about where you live right now?: Well, let’s see. Every day begins and ends with ‘I love you’s from aforementioned parents. Even when we’re upset with one another, we let our anger ebb and then go about our ways as we always do. We are very happy people, we love to tease one another and laugh with (and at) each other. We are also very open, and I feel as though there is very little (if nothing at all) I cannot discuss with my parents. I often ask their advice when I am considering even small things. Not so much in that I feel as though I can’t move forward without their approval, but because their opinions do matter to me. If I’m going to make a decision then I’ll be the one making it, but that doesn’t change the fact that I like to know where they stand on the matter...yes, I think that answers that nicely.

What do you miss the most about a place you've left behind?: My story hasn’t moved a lot really. We’ve only ever lived in two houses as long as I’ve been alive. I grew up a bit in this house that I’m currently living in....I grew up more in my grandmother’s (Called Mommie by the grandkids) house. Perhaps because I was the baby’s baby, she always seemed to have me over and doted on me more than the others. And then, she died. I was young, and I barely even remember her…it’s mostly feelings, and things I know I should remember, but only have flashes of. When Mommie died, my parents decided to buy her house. Unfortunately, it was always ‘Mother’s House’ for all the kids, and many family members abused that fact. My mom put a stop to that quickly by changing locks and declaring that while Mommie was important and well loved in life, she was now gone and this wasn’t her house any longer. Not amount of sentiment was going to change that. She probably hurt a few people's feelings…but we aren’t the sort that relies on the physical for remembrance.

Hurricane Andrew hit not long after we’d bought the house...thank God Mom had harped on Dad to keep the flood insurance. A subdivision on the other side of the bayou was flooding, so the geniuses of our community decided to let the damn break on both sides, thereby flooding booth subdivisions. Our entire street flooded, and we had 13 inches of water in our house. A centimeter higher, and the water would’ve gotten into the electrical outlets…I don’t know what would’ve happened, and I’d prefer not to think on it. At the time, I thought it was a lot of fun. Hell, Mom and Dad had propped up all the furniture on wooden chairs, bricks and counter tops, and I ended up crawling on top of the couch and sleeping through the better part of Andrew! I woke up and there was water! Inside! I was still just a kid, and having water in your house was almost as good as having an indoor pool ^.^ Once the waters receded, the insurance helped us to remodel the house. Mom was able to take out the old, yellow shag carpet and put in laminate. The wallpaper was replaced as well, and the kitchen was remodeled to her liking.Now, this was truly our house....wasn't it?

...Things were always strange in that house...Mommie had said things before, and I’d felt things before, but no one had bothered to be bothered by it all. Of course, once we moved in my parents started to see these thigns too. Sights of a little girl in an old dress walking from room to room only to disappear…things that would be set in one place only to be found in another, upended and disheveled. I swore I saw things in that house that had no business being there. I hated playing hide and seek in it, because I didn’t feel safe in the darker corners....it just wasn’t right. Luckily, Mommiee had her house on 2½ acres of land, and she had trees all through it. Oak, Pecan, Willow, Magnolia, and others I don’t even remember. I played outside with my rabbit (Thumper) . I climbed trees a lot...and sitting in their branches, listening to the wind and birds...I invented new worlds to escape to when the real one had become too much to bear.

My new house is a comfort because it holds my loved ones and myself in safety (it really is that simple)...and my old house brought a lot of adversity…and sadness, but it also taught me to make lemonade ^.^ Things may not've allways been good, but I learned that life goes on even with the bad. I miss my grandmother, though I’ll never have her back, and I miss her trees that would sing to me when the wind picked up...but I am content with where I am...and I hope to be happy with wherever it is I may go.

TMB

Current Mood: nostalgic

My good friends, if you have not voted on LJ Idol this week, I strongly recommend that you check the poll…and vote for me while you’re at it ^.^

Thanks for your support!

Anywho...man. This LJ Idol stuff kinda takes it outta ya. I mean...I spend the first half of my week agonizing over what I’m gonna write. It’s weird. It’s weird having deadlines on my writing/creativity O.o Makes me wonder if I’d actually be able to do it professionally =.=

Plenty’s been going on. My dear cousin, Scamp, came down with a combination of Bronchitus and salmonella poisoning. That’s right, she had that nasty dinosaur-ridden peanut butter (“Kid’s voice: I think salmonella is a type of dinosaur..” Sha.) She had an upset stomach one day and had peanut butter on toast to settle her stomach =.= Only several days after eating this peanut butter did she hear on the news that all peanut butter with the first numbers “211” on them were recalled because of salmonella poisoning. That’s when the whole sickness thing came to light. SO …she is now recovering from that, although last I heard the bronchitis had gotten beater. Man…she just couldn’t get one sickness. Oh no! She’s too special for that. Damn over achiever issues.

What else is there? Oh, not that much of anything but, on Warcraft, I deleted almost all of my Hoard characters on Icecrown, deciding that Icecrown would be my Alliance server. So Bonnianne (human mage), Qiralyn (Nigh elf Druid), Dolithiel (Draenei Shaman), and Leikra (Dwarf Paladin) are all on Icecrown still. Jezeth (Troll Hunter) is still there temporarily...till I can work up the money to have her switched to Sentinels. Sentinels is where I have my Hoard characters. So far, I have Yaviel (Blood Elf Warlock), Yalisilwen (Blood Elf Hunter), and Suzii (Tauren Warrior) on Sentinels. Although, I haven’t gotten the chance to actually play Suzii much =.= I gotta admit...I’m not that into Warriors...I only made her as a Warrior because she’s got Druid, Shaman, Hunter and Warrior as her only options; and dammit! I want a Tauren! They’re…cool…..even if I can’t figure out a way to make such a character interesting…I’m just very warily of making her a hunter, because then that’ll be 3 hunters. Some might say having two hunters is like having the same thing. Oh, no my friends. Having a Troll hunter and a Blood elf hunter are two very different things. But, having a Troll hunter and a Tauren hunter might be very similar. So I’m staying away from that class...even though I do love the Hunter class. So, it was either Druid, Shaman or Warrior and I thought, “hmm…never really played as a warrior…*shrug*”.

Another thing I’d been wanting to do was make some sort of RPG icon for LJ, but have it with my old characters from EQ and my newer characters from WoW..like a moving Giff. Only for some reason, LJ never liked the giffs I made before when I had working corel draw and now that it’s busted I’m sorta stuck. It keeps “Unable to create a DOM document. Class not registered. Verify that MSXML4 is installed”. So I’m prowling the internet for that, even though I’m not sure what I’m doing O.o’ I’m trying the Windows site now…let’s hope that helps. (It’s what it’s there for right?)

Also, I finally ordered something from Amazon.com. Well, a few somethings actually. I figured, I haven’t ordered in a while, I’ve been watching my money like a good little girl, and I got a nice refund from the tax people just recently, so it’s ok to actually get something for myself. Plus pay-day is this Friday, and I did so good between pay-days that I had lots of cash in the bank still. I’ve been meaning to expand my (nearly nonexistent) Manga collection for some time now. I have something like 3 or 4 series up on my Manga wish list, and I’ve yet to start acquiring any of them. So I bought the first and second volumes of Fruits Basket; one of my favorite animes every. Before this anime came along, I had no idea there was such a thing as genki angst. Then I also go a DVD called The Greatest Journeys on Earth - Japan: Journeys on the Tokaido, because while I do enjoy reading, if it comes to something such as learning, I can’t learn very well from reading. Now, if it’s on the History channel or Animal Planet or the Discovery channel...it stays in my brain for years. So buying documentaries on stuff I think is cool works. I also go I’m not Dead by Pink...just because ^___^

…….I think that’s it for me. I’m gonna give a slight ‘Mouto-chan update. Chibi is still doing very well at college in Arkansas. She said that this semester is much easier than the others (though by no means easy) and she’s allowed a bit of a social life. She also said that she’d be coming down for …something…not Spring Break but something else that they have, and it’d be around May-ish. Then she probably wouldn’t be down till Christmas break, which really works because Scamp and I might actually be moved into the Nexus by then and we could have our Christmas celebration there! Coolness! On the Reiko front, things have been fun. Reiko called me Wednesday (I think it was…) and asked if I planed to live with my parents forever…like I’ve got the word “Looser” tattooed on my back or something. It’s not what she said, but how she said it. I informed her that Scamp and I would be moving in the Nexus later in the year. Turns out she’s looking at buying a house in Hammond because it’s closer to the school she needs to go to, and she can buy one at auction cheap from the state. Of course, she’d looked to me as a potential room mate…but that was till she realized I’d have my own house. She also has a new pet rat (her rats are cute guys…seriously. Stop making those faces! They’re really sweet!). Her first pet rat is Milo…he’s kind of this off grayish rat…maybe white with grey tips or something. Anyway, he’s pretty big, and she has her grey cat Chimera (after the band), and Pet Smart (where she works) gave her another rat, because it’s tail is stubbed off and no one wants it. She’s a lot smaller than Milo and she’s dark brown (mouse brown ^.^). She said that she wants to mate the female to Milo later once she’s matured. She asked me what I thought she should name it, and I told her to name her “Joyce”. For you Milo & Otis fans out there, I’m sure you know why ^____^…oddly enough it feels like my ‘Mouto-chans are moving far, far away from me….s’a good thing Scamp’s moving in soon. Otherwise, I’d feel abandoned or something =.=

Eureka! Corel is now working! I just needed to download something from the windows site and I’m good! Thank goodness.

Well, my sleeping meds are kicking in. I’ll be logging off, sunshines. But here’s a nice bout of Sunday Quizzes for you…

( Clutter Cutter )

Yaviel Isilmiel

Current Mood: tired

MM: Oooh k! LJ Idol time….What is this week's topic!...ehw …uh oh…The One I Love? Aughhh. I hate Valentine's Day! It affects peoples' brains.

Left Brain: Tell me about it.

Right Brain: Oh, you two are just being cynics. This could be fun!

MM: Um, Newsflash: I don't have a love.

Right Brain: That's not true! You have your parents! You love them very much! And your cousin!

Left Brain: I don't think they're referring to that type of love...Sounds more like a One true Love thingy.

Right Brain:...Did you just say 'thingy'?

Left Brain: …yes.

Right Brain: That's awesome.

MM: Ok! Can we focus here!

Left Brain: Sorry.

Right Brain: Right! So...love...but love is so many different things! You can take it to mean a bunch of things! You can use that.

MM: Eugh, I don't have the energy for this =_=

Left Brain: You really should've thought of that when you entered into this contest.

MM: You keep reminding me of that. And it's not helping the current situation. In fact it never helps any situation!

Left Brain: Indeed. Well, let's see what we can do with this. We've established that you don't want to do family members because even though you do love them, it might not be the type of love identified with this week's entry.

Right Brain: I still think it'd be cool to do your parents.

MM: Look, loving your parents is seen more as an obligation, and let's face it, my parents are much cooler than some others. I can't just say "I love my parents because they roxors my soxs!"

Right Brain:..You just did.

Left Brain: Can we focus here?

Right Brain: I love the word 'roxors'.

MM: It is fun to write and say, isn't it?

Left Brain: Helloooo? Love!

MM: I don't have a love. I mean, I love in ways, but I don't have a love.

Right Brain: Roxors!

Left Brain: Dammit, RB! Focus!

RB: Sorry…

Left Brain: It's ok. Now let's just think and get through this.

MM: …Right. Because that's worked so well before.

RB: >.>

Left Brain: I'm not sure I like your tone.

RB: I know! Let's listen to some music! That usually helps to inspire!

Left Brain: It does?

MM: Sometimes.

Left Brain: Well, anything's worth a try at this point.

RB: Yay!

****15 Minutes Later - Nickelback's streaming from the Speakers****

RB: *sings* And I'm paaaaacin' by the phone!

MM: *sings* 'Cause I haaaaate to be alone!

Left Brain: This is stupid.

RB: *sings* And you're out there with him somewhere, and just about to kiss! Lord, I wanna be the someone that you're with!

Left Brain: I just don't get it. It's not helping either.

MM: I suppose it isn't…but it is catchy. That you can't deny.

Left Brain: I would never try to.

RB: You're such a party pooper, Lefty.

Lefty: Indeed.

RB: Ok, so Nickleback isn't helping...maybe something else? Oh! I know! Rascal Flats! That always puts me in a whimsical mood!

Lefty: Just what we needed.

RB: Where do you suppose they got the name 'Nickelback' from?

Lefty: ...Who knows. It's better than 'Motivated Grass'.

MM: Hey! I liked that name!

Lefty: Only because you made it up...

MM: …well...

RB: What about listening to Skindred?

Lefty: Even I know that there is nothing loving about Skindred.

MM: Yeah…Skindred's great for writing fighting scenes though.

Lefty: That I will concede to.

RB: Hmmmm….Maybe…you should….ohhh! Your Twin's online! You could Warcraft!

MM: Yeah!

Lefty: …how does that help us? Besides…your twin is ALWAYS online.

RB: ..well, it'll relieve the stress of having to come up with something...

Lefty: Right, and she'll be MMORPGing till 11 then be way too exhausted to write. Great idea.

MM: Uh, guys?

RB: I guess…. You're such a meanie some times. It's affecting you too. You're way more wrinkly than I am.

Lefty: that's because I'm more mature than you are.

RB: *stomps foot* I am mature!

MM: Hello?

Lefty: The fact that you did that while stomping your foot is so great.

RB: Just because you're an obsessive perfectionist!

Lefty: This coming from the disjointed dreamer!

MM: I officially know what it feels like to be a prisoner of one's own mind...

RB: HA! You couldn't do a thing without me! I'm the one that's giving you ideas all the time!

Lefty: Oh please! All you can come up with is jumbled dreams. I put structure into them!

RB: Oh yeah!? Well, if you're so good at this, you do it! *stomps off*

Lefty: Fine! *stomps off*

MM: …I have a headache >.<

****20 minutes later****

RB:…..M'sorry.

Lefty: *sigh* me too...

MM: There's just nothing for it you two. Let's face it. I may love, but when it comes to having a love, I got nothing.

RB: That's not true! There's something else you could do for this week's entry!

Lefty: …dare I ask?

RB: Just write.

MM:…hmm.

( Ai )

Current Mood: anxious

First thing’s first…

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Gosh...I sure do know how to disappear don’t I? Well, it takes time and energy to read LJ Idol posts. Oh! And the marvelous C.S. Hayden posted another chapter of Koiji! Totally rocked my socks and I’ve read over it 3 times already ^___^ ! God, I hope it’s not long before the next one! I wanna see Kirin (or Ari-chan, or Kai-sama, or hell even Master Setsu and the hatchlings) whip Happa’s tail! He’s the type of male that really puts a bad name on the sex. It’s like he’s personally defeated when Ari-chan chooses someone else, and what does he do? He takes it out on Kirin! It’s not Kirin’s fault Happa wasn’t chosen (well, maybe partially his fault, but still, his attitude could be better). He doesn’t even notice Galena, who’s obviously lonely from lack of attention. It’s like, there are more females than males…it’s not like you don’t have others you can consider. And it’s not like you’ve gone out of your way to make her feel like you’re interested in her. Geeze!….ok, enough ranting about fan fiction =.= I promise.

Work’s been draining too. I had sugar crashes two days out of this week and ended up going through work like a veritable zombie. D-Monthly is over for the month, thank you God. The nurses and my mom both think I’m anemic because I take two B12 complex pills every morning and have been for four months now, and it does absolutely nothing for me. The nurses suggested taking iron supplements, but mom’s afraid it’ll make my joints swell up (which is what happens to her when she takes them). But at some point you just gotta risk it, you know? It’s either that, or I should start taking something specifically for energy. As it is, I take the two B12’s, C, E, Fish Oil, and Clairton D every morning. Oh, but to report some good work news, they now have Barq’s Root Beer in the vending machine downstairs ^__________^ So happy!

Now for stories from work. Yesterday, Karen (office manager down-stairs) loaned us both Taylor Hicks and Katherine Mcphee’s CDs. We listened to Taylor’s and all agreed that it wasn’t as good as it could’ve been and we hoped the next one would be better...Then we put in Katherine’s…At first it was like, “Hmm. It’s good…but it sounds like other people. Like not original. That one sounds kinda Christina-ish, and that one’s a bit Britney-ish...but none of it is really original.” Then came the song Open Toes. O….M…..G…..We had such fun with this song. Ok, so evidently it’s about her open toed shoes right? Well she says she’s got to have them when she goes out at night because “Them boys, they like them open toes.” And I turned to Lacey and said, “I’m sorry, did she say ‘Open Toes’ or ‘Open Hoes’?” So now, it has been christened Katherine’s Open Hoes song. We laugh every time someone brings it up.

Another amusing anecdote: Lacey asked a few minutes ago “So, Mardi Gras is on a Tuesday right?” and I was like “OMG, you did not just ask me that.” And she was like “I haven’t looked at the calendar! I don’t know!” and I’m like “Lacey…Mardi Gras if French for Fat Tuesday…” /insert giggle-fit here. That was just priceless.

Speaking of Mardi Gras, I searched online for the local parades, and printed out a new calendar for the month at work so that everyone would know when and where the parades were rolling. I also went through my uber-calendar that I keep in my purse which has the holidays on it. I used it as a reference and put the holidays where they go. Then I updated vacations and who was going to be off when. My nerd points increased once I finished ^.^

Ooooh…thank God it’s Friday. Even if there’s supposed to be rain and parades. I’ve never been much of a parade person. The only thing I enjoy about Mardi Gras would be the king cakes ^.^ I haven’t had the chance to get one, but I’m hoping since I got paid today I’ll be able to. Oh happy day.

Well...I guess I’ll be heading back to work. Later, Sunshines.

What MsMoon Means

M is for Moral

S is for Serious

M is for Magnificent

O is for Outrageous

O is for Odd

N is for Naive

What Does Your Name Mean?

Harvest Moon

PS: I <3 Yong!

Current Mood: giggly

2/9/2007 EDIT:

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LJ Topic: “My Biggest Mistake and What I Hope that I Have Learned From it"

Hmm. What a loaded topic. How do you approach something like that?...and more importantly, what is my biggest mistake? I’ve never been the type to rehash problems or mistakes. You make mistakes, you learn from it and you move on letting the wound heal in due time; a good motto really considering I’m the obsessive type that’d just as soon beat my own self down before anybody else. Not only that but my memory isn’t worth ash, so even when I do make mistakes, I tend to forget not long after. Then there’s the fact that my life is over-all mundane and what mistakes I do make don’t really impact the dullness of it.

So...should I talk about my horse Rocky, and how I agreed to sell him because my bouts with the endometriosis were making it impossible to ride him and give him the proper attention he needed? No. That wasn’t really a mistake. He went on to greener pastures, even if I couldn’t ride. Perhaps I should talk about believing the local doctors for over three years when they said it was all in my head, then seeing a specialist and finding out my condition was actually worsening...no. Too self-righteous. I think I’m beginning to see why this topic is one that I find hard to write on...my mistakes are not mistakes, only difficult lessons. It felt terrible to sell Rocky after growing attached to him and loving him for so long, but it was the right thing to do. He was wasting away in a pasture, doing nothing but being fed and eating grass all day long. The same with my doctors. They’re doctors, they should be smart enough to know when something’s wrong, no? But they let me down by closing their minds and assuming that if they could not find something, there must be nothing wrong. I learned to listen to myself, to trust myself and to pay more attention to who I’m confiding my trust to.

But I don’t want it to seem as though I’m trying to cop out of the subject. So I’ll write about mistakes and what I’ve learned. But haven’t I already? Is this enough, typing out that these were mistakes and that I don’t view them as such?…I’ll throw in one more, just to be certain.

When I graduated from High School, I debated for a while as to what I should go to college for. I had to go to college; my brother didn’t and my parents have ragged on it every sense. Not going to college would disappoint them and make them feel as though they’d failed at raising two children. But like many young people, I had no idea what it was that I should be going for. Should I pursue something that would flourish my writing and allow me to better write my book? …No, that would be entirely too risky. What if I didn’t get anywhere with it and ended up wasting the money? OK. Web design. I’ve always enjoyed graphic and web design, and I’ve never had a degree for it so that I could do it professionally. Certainly that would be something worthwhile. No...risky again and besides that, Nichols (the closest official college) is a very expensive school. I don’t want to pay an arm and a leg for something like that, a field that I may never succeed in. So, I investigated the local community college. Their equipment wasn’t as good, and they didn’t have quite as many options, but still! I could study Office Systems and Accounting, earn some sort of Business Degree and then I’d at least have a fall-back. Something that I could always use…but certainly something I didn’t want to do for the rest of my life. 2+ years later, I earned my Associates Degree in Office Systems Technology...I’ve been working at this little desk job, a job my degree provided for me. And all the time I keep saying “If I could go back to school for something like writing or web design, I’d do it in a heartbeat.”

Perhaps having this degree under my belt was a good idea. Perhaps it will help me in the future…but the time it took to get it could’ve been used to further my dreams. I should’ve trusted myself or at least been willing to take the risks. But I didn’t want to burden my parents should the financial situation get out of hand, and I was too afraid to fail them (and myself). Failure is a part of life. Everyone does it (and I can say that without feeling cliché). And we all deal with it and walk away with something more. Sure, you may have failed, but you still have something more than what you came with. I learned something else while at this desk job, filing, copying, taking phone calls, and organizing mail...yes. I can be content with this. It’s something I can do and that I do well...But it isn’t fulfilling. It doesn’t pressure me, it doesn’t challenge me, and it doesn’t satisfy me. In its own way, it smothers me. I can’t write because all of my efforts are devoted to this job. I’m tired at the end of the day, and I’m not strengthening the very skills that make me me. Perhaps the biggest thing I’ve learned from this…is not to be afraid. I’m going to fail at some things. It’s inevitable. But I shouldn’t be afraid of that, or if I am, I shouldn’t let that paralyze me.

In the future (once I’ve accomplished many other goals), I hope to be able to go back to college for the things I love to do. Maybe I will fail at them...but if I do, at least I can say that I dared to dream.

Current Mood: thoughtful

Ok, so this weeks LJ Idol assignment (delivered to us by popfiend), is to ‘toot our horns’ as it were. We get to sing our praises, and tell everyone why we think we’re uber-cool…I suppose that’d be easy for an optimistic person. Being quite the realist (along with a healthy dose of cynicism), I don’t spend very much time considering my good qualities. I know I have a lot of them (people wouldn’t like/put up with me if I didn’t); I just don’t really dwell on them…sad to say, no? What little time I spend thinking of myself is always focusing on what I want changed. So I sent a shout out to all my friends (those I know well enough to send e-mails to) asking what they thought my good qualities actually were. I got three responses that I thought were entirely too much, so I’ll just go with those. I just hope I’m not too long-winded =_=

Lori (Head Nurse and our second in command) and Lacey (my giggle-buddy and partner in crime) say that they see me as someone who actually cares about the people I know, and that I’m very straightforward and dedicated. They say I’m witty and always seem to have a clever comeback that makes people laugh, without being mean. Lacey added that I was a creative, crazy, computer nerd (gaining the title of adjective queen) too...but it wasn’t quite as nice sounding as Lori’s words. Lori wound that all up by adding that I was humble as well, since I never really boasted about any of my skills...I just used them when they were needed.

Scamp (my cousin and favorite comic book hero) said mostly the same thing. A loyal friend that gets to know her friends and pays attention to what their interests are. She says I always manage to cheer up my friends and really listen to them. She said that I don’t argue about things, I talk things over and don’t force everyone to agree with me, somehow managing to try and see that others understand my PoV as well as I try to understand theirs. She threw in something else about having a freaky ability to quote movies really good too...what exactly is everyone trying to tell me? -_-‘

Now, while I don’t disagree, I must say that I didn’t really think of all that. Of course, I think it all comes down to a few basic qualities: generosity, consideration, humor, and creativity. I’m always trying to make my friends laugh, because like I said in my last LJ Idol post, none of us laugh enough. If you don’t take the time to laugh, you’ll end up old before your time, right? I’m always fairly considerate of my friends and loved ones, if only because it seriously helps the friendship and relationship progress. And being creative and generous seriously helps with the whole gift giving. Put it all together and you’ve got yourself a seriously fun package ^)~ Sure, I’m seriously OCD, but I use it to my advantage and am hopelessly devoted to my obsessions. If I weren’t around, who else would you bum the entire season of Threshold from? (or Batman, Fruits Basket, Gargoyles, Gundam Wing, Red vs. Blue, Sailor Moon, Supernatural, Robotech, The Slayers, Thundercats, Trigun, Wolf's Rain, X-men: Evolution etc etc). I don’t like to argue if only because it doesn’t really achieve anything, so I always try to be more open and at least listen to other’s opinions first.

I’m a huge work in progress...I’ll be the first to tell you that. There are so many things that need work. But what I probably won’t say is that I do enjoy being me...I don’t really fantasize about being anybody else like I used to as a girl. I’ve learned that everyone has it rough in some way or another. Besides, I’m stuck with me, so I might as well enjoy it. What I don’t like, I can always improve upon, because I have my future.

I’m not always roses and sunshine...but, I do enjoy the rain.

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The Unlikely Hero You are the Unlikely Hero! Others like you are Frodo (Lord of The Rings), Young Aurthur (arthurian Legend), Luke Skywalker (Star Wars), Peter/Susan/Edmund/Lucy (Narnia), Richard Mayhew (Neverwhere), Harry Potter (Harry Potter) and Richard Cypher (Wizard's first Rule). You were happy to just live out your life as a peaceful schoolboy/farmer/wood's guide. But alas, greatness was thrust upon you. Don't let the hordes of The Totally Wicked Villain get you down, you have your Seasoned Veteran Friend to protect you and you almost always end up with the Pillar-of-Strength Love interest. Heed you Mentor well and keep your chin up, hero! You are simple, humble and kind but possess great potential for truly inspirational heroism, bravery and strength in dark times.
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Harvest Moon

Current Mood: content

Today was a lot better than yesterday….being able to actually sleep the whole night through helped a lot I think. There was a dull period after lunch, but it didn’t last long so it didn’t bother me. And thankfully, the day passed quickly. Not much to complain about other than my check of course. Where did it go? Oh yeah, bills and savings =.= Thus is life.

I noticed that most of the of my fellow contestants on

therealljidol are encouraging their LJ friends (participating and/or not) to go and vote for them on the next contest. From what I understand it's more of a popularity thing...if it were elimination, i'd also be shamelessly pluging myself as well, but I know if it came down to it, I'd never win such a popularity contest against so many popele...so, as long as I don't totally suck, I'm ok....

So, tonight’s been watching this week’s CSI with Mom...I’m also rewatching Thursday’s Supernatural, and then it’s off to bed for me. Tomorrow, Mom and I wanna go and see the Pinta. There’s actually a re-creation of it in town (and from what I hear, plans to recreate the Niña and the Santa María), and we’ve decided it’d be cool to go and see it. I’m hoping they allow for cameras...
That’s all. /nod nod nod. ‘Night.

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems.

These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day.

Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities.

You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

Current Mood: sleepy

My God, where have the last two days gone? There were right there…right there in front of me, I swear. >.>….oh well.

Most of my time has spent working or recovering from work, but what little time I have been online, I’ve been trying to read as many LJ Idol posts as I can from other contestants. Just to mingle and get acquainted and see who’s who and find out who I’m gonna vote for. Can I just make this one official statement on the record?

O_O'

Yah..That pretty much sums it all up. It’s a lot of “Ok, this person is gonna be ‘so-and-so’” and “OMG, that is too funny!” and “Ok…I need to comment with something that shows my opinion of this person and shows my personality while doing it……….what is my opinion of this person? And which personality am I going with today? O.o” not to mention “Holy Quadrupeds! That’s the coolest icon I’ve ever seen!” and other such stuff. It’s mind-boggling. Waaaaaay too deep for my shallow mind =___=! …Not really. Wouldn’t be so bad if I weren’t sore and tired from work. Everyone seems really fun and cool though. /shrugs. time will tell I suppose. Ultimately I joined because I thought it’d be a lot of fun to see other peoples’ posts and hear an opinion of mine.

Oh, in other news: I went from having 68 LJ Friends (aka ‘so called friends’) to having 30. My Friends page was getting awfully cluttered and I was somehow missing a lot of things in the shuffle. Then I wandered over to my profile page and realized that out of the 68 friends that I have only 30 were mutual. Of course that made me wonder how I’d managed to add 68 people to my friends list anyway…I know I used to wonder around a lot and notice people who seemed cool and had similar interests as me…And I was always afraid I’d forget that person, so I’d add them to my FL just to make sure I didn’t…but I guess they did some house cleaning and were like “Who was this girl again? Oh yeah…I don’t really know her and she never comments.” So I bookmarked them all in the LJ – Unforgettable folder if only because I really don’t want to forget these people! They’re awesomeness...they just evidently don’t have me on their friends list anymore. So, no more adding people to the friends list only because I don’t want to forget them; that’s what book marking is for ne? Even with the whole LJ Friend Clean Up thing…popfiend still dominates the list…amusing. ^.^

Ohhhh, what else, what else, what else, what else, what else?....Hmm. been talking with Scamp a lot. We finally got our old tradition of long e-mails back up again. We discussed a lot about the Nexus. Our house is gonna rock one way or the other, I just wanna make sure it’s as fun to be in as it is to behold. I’ve decided to put off the whole CD thing, if only because I wanna move in a whole lot more than I want that CD =.= Priorities right? So, I can save up for a CD later...no biggie. Considering the amount of money that I make and that I wanna have a good bit tucked away in savings before we really break ground, I think late November / early December would be a great time to move in. I know I’ve overwhelmed my Dad with all my ideas for everything (replace the floors with hardwood, till up all the ground so it’s level; oh heck, I think I lost him after just those two actually). Mom said he was saying something like, “I can’t do all of that!” He forgets that I intend to pay for it all. Speaking of Dad, I think I’ll write him an e-mail while he’s on the rig.

I’m guessing that’s about all. If whatever else I’d wanted to write about hasn’t surfaced, it ain’t gonna. So, I’ll catch ya’ll later (more than likely tomorrow around lunch time -.-). G’night.

You know the Bible 100%!

Wow! You are awesome! You are a true Biblical scholar, not just a hearer but a personal reader! The books, the characters, the events, the verses - you know it all! You are fantastic!

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Huh…well, all that time in church was good for something ^.^ This’s gotta be the first 100% I’ve had in a looooooong time!

Harvest Moon

PS: Also, I’ve been thinking of changing the ‘gill’ tag to ‘scamp’ since if you were just coming and reading this, you might wonder who Scamp is, but there’s no Scamp tag, even though Scamp is Gill…but you might not know that…/reads all that over and nods. Right. That. I mean, there’s a ‘scamp art’ and a scamp comics’ tag, might as well make an official ‘scamp’ tag. Makes sense.../nod nod nod.

Current Mood: sore

For those of you who know me...guess what? I decided to join LJ Idol season 3 over at

therealljidol. /nod nod nod. It was kinda sporadic and totally on impulse, but I figured “why not? I post anyway!”. So if you do know me, you can skip over this post without gaining my fury (yes, my fury which is contained to this adorable little annoyed face ¬.¬). But if you’re in the mood for a giggle, and you don’t mind going over things you already know; by all means, continue reading.

Now, to you newcomers, hello and welcome. After much agonizing over the first entry, I decided to give a brief description of myself (what everyone who thinks they know me knows) and then follow up with something perhaps more my style (probably random and inane). I shall now commence telling you a bit about myself.

The Basics. My name is Tracie Marie. Everyone at work, college and church knows(or knew) me as just Tracie. I later gained the nickname MsMoon after waaaay too much Sailor Moon. I was born and raised and now live and work in southern Louisiana. In fact, I live about 40 minutes south of New Orleans. I was raised by my wonderful parents with the occasional presence of my older brother. My dad is now 65 years old (soon to be 66). He’s worked over 30 years on off-shore drilling rigs. Mom is 56 (they’re 9 years and a few months apart) and a home maker (behold my heroes). My brother just turned 37 on the 19th. My brother and I are 13 years apart. I am 23. I was a daydreamer as a child and I still am today. I love to write, but sometimes it’s better to read (it’s more relaxing, and I don’t have to do all the thinking). I occasionally play World of Warcraft (though not as seriously as some) and Katamari Damacy on PS2. I went to college for a little over 2 years and emerged with my Associates Degree in Office Systems Techonology. I now work in town as a Clerk. It’s been the best job I’ve had yet, if only because my coworkers and I get along so well. I use this journal to try and keep track of old friends (and new ones) while updating anyone who cares for half a second on how my life is going. I also throw in facts that interest me every now and then.

That’s enough of that for now. I think I’ll go ahead with the other half of this entry.……..I’ve no idea what to write. /looks around.

You know, I love Weird Al. I have four of his CDs, and I’m slowly working on getting all the others that came before. Seriously, ya’ll. If you had said 20 years ago that Michael Jackson would be next to nonexistent in the public eye, but Weird Al would still be going strong, somebody would’a called the men in those white coats to come and cart you off. If he can survive this long, there must be something to him, right? So why is it, I get funny looks when I say he’s one of my favorites? At work, a lot of the girls look at me funny whenever I mention him. I mean, there are worse things out there…I’m sure we can all attest to that (and my coworkers who have kids agree with this whole-heartedly!). Oh, sure he may not be the charmer that Orlando Bloom is (who had me at 'Mae govannen'), and he’s not as ripped as Vin Diesel (who I’ve loved ever since Riddick), but you know what? He makes me laugh (and sometimes he has an interesting perspective about things O.o). As far as I’m concerned, I can’t laugh enough. The world is very depressing, and there are things out there that will just rob you of your joy at any second. So why not laugh while you can? So you know what? I can live with lanky and pale and long curly hair...Chicks dig scrawny pale guys right? (I’m sure some do). Honestly, I’ve always based attraction on more of a personal level...I never have found myself attracted to guys that were just "hot". In fact, the one guy that I constantly got hung up on all the time when I was a lot younger was short and partially bald and didn’t have the best of bodies...but you know, he didn’t seem too bothered that I was overweight and ugly. And he really made me laugh. But that probably has a lot to do with the fact that I think I’m physically unattractive, but I still think I’m a beautiful person, so my perception of what is attractive had to change...Deep huh? And to think I started off with Weird Al! Man...I think I just remembered why I like to just let myself ramble so much o_o

All right...it’s 9ish, and tomorrow I start my first day of working 8 – 5. I’ve been working 10 – 5 for a very long time now, and I’ve gotten used to sleeping in till 7. But tomorrow I wake up bright and early at 5:30. Ah well. It’s all gonna be worth it once I can afford to own the Nexus. (I’ll just leave that at that and let those of you who’re new wonder what the heck the Nexus is. God knows I’ve ranted and raved about it enough in the past couple’a weeks =___=). So yeah. Thanks for reading and I hope I didn’t loose you though all that insanity. But that’s all for this entry. Tootles!

To those of you newbies who don’t know, I always post a quiz result at the end of every entry just for the heck of it. I enjoy taking the quizes, and it’s something visual to break up all this text. I don’t see any reason not to include that in my LJ Idol entries. So there ya have it. Peace out.

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The best calming fragrance: jasmine
The best fragrance for everyday wear: sandalwood
The best fragrance to boost your sex appeal: rose
The best fragrance for energy: peppermint

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