OCD+ADD=OMG

Um...yeah, so things to post about. My aunt Annie is in the hospital in Lafayette. Mom said a lot of things that I didn’t really understand fully or just didn’t want to understand. Words like A fib, blood clott, stroke, high blood pressure...Mom’s headed out there today with my cousin Angel (Aunt Annie’s daughter). It’s not that I’m particularly close to Aunt Annie...in fact, I’m not; but, it’s one of my mom’s sisters. And I know it really bothers her...so it bothers me. Mom’s the soft-hearted type (and I am too, deep down, I’m just better at making you think I’m not), and I’m very empathetic towards her…and anyone else I care about really.

Scamp isn’t doing wonderful either. She left me some voice messages (many thanks, Scampers) and mentioned that she’s sick. Of course, it could just be that her emotional health is affecting her physical health (happens to me all the time). It’s no less real than any other sickness, just harder to heal and/or treat. Questions that I used to always ask are taboo now...not so much in that it’s bad to ask them, but just because I know it hurts her and I don’t want to cause any undue stress. I don’t bother commenting on or asking about certain topics anymore, because I know I can’t say anything to make it better and I don’t want to say anything that might make it worse. Alfred Lord Tennyson’s one trippy fella. That’s all I gotta say.

Pyramid collection is sending me my Mermaid door topper…but not my callendar…wtf mates? Also, I’m getting my salt & papers shaker holder and bottle holder but not my incense burner box or napkin holder...I don’t know who would possibly want to be me, but today isn’t a good day to be MM.

Oh well. Lunch break’s almost over…I’m gonna just suck it up and try to get through this day. Later, Sunshines.

 

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What Your Favorite Color Blue Says About You:

Emotional --- Affected --- Sensitive Peaceful --- Tranquil --- Connected Spiritual --- Experimental --- Deep

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therealljidol topic: What do you like best about where you live right now? What do you miss the most about a place you've left behind?

/thinks.………………/sighs. Let’s see how to go about this then. Perhaps it’d be best to explain my living arrangements and then take it piece by piece. I’ve lived all my life in this one town. I’m so far south in South Louisiana, I might be able to sell you what will one day be beach-front property. I’ve seen this town go from boring and normal, to over-crowded and interesting. I have always lived with my parents (Raymone {65} & Clara {56}), who dote on me, and I do dote on them as well. I was taught by their example that showing consideration and affection is most important in relationships. There have been times when my older brother (Thomas {36}) has been in the picture as far as living with us goes, but this is usually, and thankfully, temporary. Our home sits at the front of 2 acres of property, with a whole acre or so of space. On the back of the property sits our rent house. It is a small A-framed house that I hope to live in by the end of the year (and I almost always refer to as ‘the Nexus’).

What do you like best about where you live right now?: Well, let’s see. Every day begins and ends with ‘I love you’s from aforementioned parents. Even when we’re upset with one another, we let our anger ebb and then go about our ways as we always do. We are very happy people, we love to tease one another and laugh with (and at) each other. We are also very open, and I feel as though there is very little (if nothing at all) I cannot discuss with my parents. I often ask their advice when I am considering even small things. Not so much in that I feel as though I can’t move forward without their approval, but because their opinions do matter to me. If I’m going to make a decision then I’ll be the one making it, but that doesn’t change the fact that I like to know where they stand on the matter...yes, I think that answers that nicely.

What do you miss the most about a place you've left behind?: My story hasn’t moved a lot really. We’ve only ever lived in two houses as long as I’ve been alive. I grew up a bit in this house that I’m currently living in....I grew up more in my grandmother’s (Called Mommie by the grandkids) house. Perhaps because I was the baby’s baby, she always seemed to have me over and doted on me more than the others. And then, she died. I was young, and I barely even remember her…it’s mostly feelings, and things I know I should remember, but only have flashes of. When Mommie died, my parents decided to buy her house. Unfortunately, it was always ‘Mother’s House’ for all the kids, and many family members abused that fact. My mom put a stop to that quickly by changing locks and declaring that while Mommie was important and well loved in life, she was now gone and this wasn’t her house any longer. Not amount of sentiment was going to change that. She probably hurt a few people's feelings…but we aren’t the sort that relies on the physical for remembrance.

Hurricane Andrew hit not long after we’d bought the house...thank God Mom had harped on Dad to keep the flood insurance. A subdivision on the other side of the bayou was flooding, so the geniuses of our community decided to let the damn break on both sides, thereby flooding booth subdivisions. Our entire street flooded, and we had 13 inches of water in our house. A centimeter higher, and the water would’ve gotten into the electrical outlets…I don’t know what would’ve happened, and I’d prefer not to think on it. At the time, I thought it was a lot of fun. Hell, Mom and Dad had propped up all the furniture on wooden chairs, bricks and counter tops, and I ended up crawling on top of the couch and sleeping through the better part of Andrew! I woke up and there was water! Inside! I was still just a kid, and having water in your house was almost as good as having an indoor pool ^.^ Once the waters receded, the insurance helped us to remodel the house. Mom was able to take out the old, yellow shag carpet and put in laminate. The wallpaper was replaced as well, and the kitchen was remodeled to her liking.Now, this was truly our house....wasn't it?

...Things were always strange in that house...Mommie had said things before, and I’d felt things before, but no one had bothered to be bothered by it all. Of course, once we moved in my parents started to see these thigns too. Sights of a little girl in an old dress walking from room to room only to disappear…things that would be set in one place only to be found in another, upended and disheveled. I swore I saw things in that house that had no business being there. I hated playing hide and seek in it, because I didn’t feel safe in the darker corners....it just wasn’t right. Luckily, Mommiee had her house on 2½ acres of land, and she had trees all through it. Oak, Pecan, Willow, Magnolia, and others I don’t even remember. I played outside with my rabbit (Thumper) . I climbed trees a lot...and sitting in their branches, listening to the wind and birds...I invented new worlds to escape to when the real one had become too much to bear.

My new house is a comfort because it holds my loved ones and myself in safety (it really is that simple)...and my old house brought a lot of adversity…and sadness, but it also taught me to make lemonade ^.^ Things may not've allways been good, but I learned that life goes on even with the bad. I miss my grandmother, though I’ll never have her back, and I miss her trees that would sing to me when the wind picked up...but I am content with where I am...and I hope to be happy with wherever it is I may go.

Beware, for I am: Drained

Thank God that today is ending. /Sigh I've gone from anger, to frustration, to depression, to resignation, to sardonic humor, and at this point, I’m just too damn tired to feel anything. So. And update from when I last left you. I finally got in touch with this Think All Publishing place. Turns out, I’ve been billed at least 3 times a month since November. So all-in-all, I’ve lost about $180 to these people. It’s times like these when I wish I could just forget all about my Christianity. But then I remind myself that I walked right into this scam and there really is nothing I can do but be resentful. And what good would that do me in the long run? So, aside from being extremely disappointed in myself for allowing myself to be duped (Paul did say to work hard that no one should deceive you after all), that crisis is pretty much averted. On the good end of the spectrum, I did get my income tax checks in, and they were enough to make the Think All disaster virtually ineffective on my account. During my call to the Think All people, I politely requested that they cancel my subscription (or whatever it is they call it), and have received an e-mail verifying said cancellation. That doesn’t mean I won’t be looking for these people on my next bank statement, but at least I have an e-mail as proof now that it should be canceled.

After dealing with that unpleasant matter, I settled in to watch Robotech. A full start-to-finish thing ending whenever I should finish the Invid saga. I was interrupted half way Mom. Sees Bub (my brother in Oklahoma who’s in college) has found this new thingy called a Green Dot card. Basically he has this card that he bought from Wallgreens, and you can put any amount of money on the card and it only cost like $4.95 to reload it. So, he figures if we get a Green Dot card, and load it, then transfer the money he needs for rent and tools (usually a once-a-month expense but lately, who can say?), it’d be easier than sending said cash in cards. Mom likes to get encouraging cards and send the cash in those. The cards are thicker so they hide that there’s money in them and all that. Plus it’s just sentimental. Well, Mom’s very dubious about the whole thing. Why? Because Bub said three little words…It’s Really Easy. Any time someone remarks on how easy a process is, it will invariably become a troublesome process when my mother tries it. It’s not really her fault. She’s just not very inept when it comes to learning new things. She forgets everything too, so when it comes to doing something she hasn’t done recently, she forgets that too.

So, we head on down to Walgreens and we pick up the card right away. We ask the cashier about the whole process and she flippantly tells us that it’s easy and it’s outlined on the back of the card. We shopped a bit for some other things that we needed. Nothing big, just little things, you know. Then we headed to McDonnalds. Mom wanted a vanilla ice cream cone. The nearest one said their ice cream machine was down, so we went all the way on the other end of town to get one. Their ice cream machine was down as well. Turns out they clean their ice cream machines all on the same day. Today. So they were all down. Aggravated Mom to no end, I tell you. So we ended up going to the Snow ball stand not two streets over from our own. I got a snow cone (Coffee flavored with condensed milk) and Mom finally got to have her ice cream cone. We came home, turned on the watering hoses so the flowers could get a good drink, and set about the arduous task of this ‘easy’ Green Dot card.

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Don’t you know...it wouldn’t work. We tried doing it over the phone. We tried doing it on the net. We tried putting in several different numbers (they gave us 2 receipts with numbers, maybe those were the correct numbers) we put in Bub’s card number, we put in our card number. Finally Bub calls. Mom tells him the situation and says she’s gonna call the store manager and see what he thinks. He tells us to come down to the store (again) and he’ll do it right from the store.

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He couldn’t do anything with it. That made me very happy. It only aggravated Mom more, but I found it very refreshing that we were not the problem. So I called Bub (because by them Mom was so upset about the whole thing she didn’t want to talk to anyone), and I told him that the manager told us to come back in the morning and talk to the head manager, because he couldn’t make a refund on a purchase that big.

The whole problem with my Mom is that she feels stupid. She always feels like she doesn’t know what she’s doing and she’s stupid. Everyone else can do things so easily and she just feels inadequate because when she tries they’re terribly hard. My brother is a know-it-all with a tendency to talk down to others. Throw these two together in this situation, and you’re gonna have some hurt feelings. She started going on how she wish she could just never do anything on the computer again, because if she didn't then she wouldn't have to feel stupid. I told my mom that I thought she was a great woman before she got to e-mail and technology and I thought she'd be just fine without it if that's what she prefered. If all she wants for her computer is a glorified game box, then that's all it has to be for her. It's fine with me. /sigh she was sullen and quiet for the rest of the evening...make me sick. I hate it when things come and take the light right out of her eyes.

The only good points about today: 1) We got some Hershey’s Cookies ‘n Cream candy bars (my new favorites). 2) CSI: Miami was very good. 3) The day is over, and soon I can sleep.

I hope tomorrow is better...It just has to be /sigh. Goodnight.

I'm an Evening Sky.



Cool and comforting, you're a brisk evening sky. You figure you've got the same number of hours every day, why waste them sleeping late or hitting the bed early? The most active hours of the day your comfort zone; morning and night are simply time to warm up and cool down.

What sky are you?

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MM

Holy Quadrupeds! I just went on another Black&White 2 binge. Holy Clucking Cow! I swear my eyes wont stop crossing. I tried to draw a road with my hand on my desk! It’s that bad!

I started playing around 11:30 this morning, and I didn’t look up till 6:30. Yeah! That’s how time consuming it is. I started a new game yesterday. I got Island 1 and 2 down. They’re both a piece of cake compared to Island 3! It’s really funny, because you have objectives that you have to do on each island that are interesting and sometimes fun. Sometimes they’re a serious pain in the ass. So, once I got to land 3 I checked out the objectives. As usual, creature has to collect certain things, build certain things; villagers have to do the same. Then I read one of the final objectives.

O.O...!

I was wondering why in the world anyone would want to do that. I mean what purpose could it possibly serve?....I know now. Yup, I fully understand. It’s because when you hit island three, it takes so damn long to do anything...that you just about want to kill every living thing (including your creature) by the time you’ve finished.

I’ve taken over just about ¾ of the island. The only other objectives are to build a Wonder of my choice (the Siren wonder is the cheapest, but I really really want a hurricane wonder. Problem is it costs 600,000 tribute and I’ve only got about 259,000...Sadness), Increase my town’s impressiveness by 30,000 (and I’m at 29,438 so that should take too long) and of course wind the land. I was hoping I could accomplish all the other objectives before I start killing people. I just now recruited a huge army and I’m debating on whether I want to just go out and attack the Japanese settlement, or just try to win them over peacefully...Of course my good conscience would love it if I just kept building an impressive town and just won the Japanese over. But my Creature and my Devil would love to just stomp all over the Japs. /sigh What to do...what to do. Granted it’d be easier to just wage war. Probably wouldn’t take half as long either. But that Japs have a Siren Wonder, so I’d have to send a small group of troupes out first to get zapped by her. Then I could go with the bigger army. After all, it takes time to fuel up a wonder...if they fry five guys it’ll be better than them frying my whole army!

Oh, and I love the interactions between my Angel and my Devil. So much so, that I’ve started taking pictures. Here’ they are!

And that’s it. I know, I know that was huge. It took me how long to type the damn thing up? Jeeze. I really need to get a life. Whatever.

I just sent an e-mail to Lionhead because I remembered that I never did claim my Tiger creature. I had preordered B&W2 long ago, but I couldn’t play it cause we were on old Irene. And now I don’t have the e-mail that gave me the link to the Tiger creature, so I don’t know how to go about down loading it. So I sent an e-mail to them and asked if they could help in any way.

I am now off to go take my shower. Tomorrow will be early, as it always is.

PS: Oh yeah, on another note. I couldn’t get anyone at Bell South to help me with the CoH thing, so I asked CoH if they could just give me a refund and let that be that. No one could ever really resolve the issue and I don’t want to pay for a month of a game I can’t play. /sigh So disappointing. I need to look into bypassing the router anyway in case EQ or any other game I want to play in the future has the same problems. Maybe I’ll figure it out on my own and play CoH later. Oh well. I just really wanted to play now. That’s life I guess.

Out of curiosity sake I put my name into the search of Amazon.com, and I found 2 Tracie's with the exact spelling of my name and my last name. Of course, it's easy to tell us apart...she lives in Tennessee and has only 3 items on her wish list. I on the other hand, have my location, my birthday, and a small (very small) summary with 411 items on my very very very very large wish list.....I really need to get a job =.=;

Don't feel like making a huge post, because nothing's changed and I don't wanna bore all my friends who don't even check my journal anyway. Here's a quiz just for the heck of it. Goodnight.

BUTTERFLY EYES

You have Butterfly
Eyes!
Positive Traits: Thoughtful,
Intelligent, Humble, Clever, Open
Minded
Negative Traits: Elitist,
Conceited, Apathetic, Cold, Sarcastic


Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?
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MM

Now, drifting away from that terrible realization, how about we move on to the day.

1. Woke up

2. Went to church

3. Opperated Sound booth

4. Went out with Mom to eat at Olive Garden

5. Agreed that Olive Garden’s dishes are way too pricy, and appetizers are just fine

6. Found out I actually enjoyed fried calamari

7. Fell in love with buttered-cheese-covered-crab-stuffed-mushrooms all over again

8. Felt terrible while Mom dragged me around Wal Mart

9. Went to CVS to get pics put on CD, only to be behind a nearly blind woman with three CDs worth of pics to print out.

10. Came home and vegged out while reading Gargoyles Fan fiction (note to self: Must send some sort of fan mail to Kimberly Towle; she had me fascinated for hours).

11. Watched Extreme Makover: Home Eddition with Mom (thank God they’re all new!)

12. Ate left overs.

13. Showered.

14. Took pills

15. Checked mail, and sent one off to cousin Andrew in AR.

16. Realized I have no life, again

17. Wrote…uh...writing in journal.

So that was my day. How was yours? Good to hear. Or, not hear in this case. I am tired. I must wake in the morning. And I am not happy about that. Why can’t I just sleep forever? I’m sure I’d enjoy life much more...but then Mom and Dad would probably be lonely. Scratch that then. Goodnight.

you're gonzo! the most interesting thing of all!
your love for chickens is truly sick, but
you're still strait. weirdo.


Which of THE MUPPETS are you?
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Congratulations! You are Kermit the Frog! In your
time you have become Captain of a ship, starred
in 'Sesame Street' and much more! Go you!


Are you a MUPPET?
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...ammusing…

MM

( Why Women Are Crabby )

And with the business concluded, it’s time for today’s quiz.

~*~Result nr 2~*~


Your power is: Telekinesis

Explanation: This power of your means
that you can make material things to move, like
for e.g. making the remote control fly over you
just by thinking it. As all powers, this is a
great gift to have. It is also helping you out
since it allows you to be lazy and have things
brought to you without moving a finger. But if
you move over to the immoral side this power
can be used as destroying peoples property or
similar things.

As a person you are easy going and just like to
have a good time. There is nothing wrong with
that, but people may see you as incredibly lazy
and irresponsible. You prefer being out
watching a movie or something than staying home
and doing the math assignment. Your outlook is
fairly positive but you are aware everything
isn't as nice as you'd like it to be. But this
doesn't stop you and even if you can be
sensitive, you get over things pretty quickly.
In school you could be considered as the fun
one among your friends and could get along with
different categories of people fairly easy. You
mean no intentional harm on those around you,
but some people may think you're too happy
and/or stupid.

Negative aspects: Because you don't like
to have things depending on you, this power may
be seen as just something cool you have, and
not as a helping gift. Also you can get too
egotistical at times without bothering to care
for others. That is why it's good to do some
self-reflecting every once in a while to see
that you're not going overboard.

What Power is Compatible With You?
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Thanks and have a nice night...what’s left of it that is.

MM

I’m not even a dog person! I love cats...tragically, I’m also allergic to cats...maybe I could get a cat, and regularly groom and take it to the groomers so that I won’t get stopped up, and have a runny nose and sneeze all the time. *sigh* I need to get a life. Oh well. Goodnight.