OCD+ADD=OMG

So, yesterday it started out with a persistent 'throat itch' cough around late afternoon. By the time I got home, I had that searing feeling every time I coughed, and every cough caused near convulsions. I had hot miso soup, it did not help. I had hot green tea. It did not help. I had my usual cereal, and then searched my medicine cabinet, thanking God almighty when I found I had NyQuil and DayQuil. The NyQuil helped a little bit. To be honest, it really suppressed the cough, but it didn't take it away. Still, it deadened my throat some, and it probably helped me to sleep. Until 5 am, that is. Then I started coughing again, so I ate a bit of cereal and had some more NyQuil (it had been 6 hours since my last dose or...whatever).

I slept again ... till about 8. I made myself get up, even though I was still very groggy. I fixed a small breakfast and some more hot green tea, took a dose of emergen-c...and put my clothes on to wash. Oh, watched The Musketeer too. That's the second adaptation of a Dumas book I've seen in a week. I just watched The Count of Monte Cristo Thursday.

Oh yeah. Anyway. I called Mom's family doctor, who I've yet to actually see (we's po).... but they said that one of the doctors is on vacation so the other one is covering their patients and they don't have anything open for a new patient at all =..= Just my luck. I've also called Dr. Sims (our chiropractor) and told them it would be better if I canceled my appointment today. I do enjoy sharing, but I'd rather keep this to myself. She thanked me profusely and told me to call whenever I came back from the reunion.

I'm tired, miserable...and I have to pack =..= Why couldn't this have happened a week ago? I'd probably be over it by now. Oh dear. Well, we may be leaving like... tomorrow morning early, but at the very least we'll have a few days before the reunion really starts. I'm gonna continue taking DayQuil and NyQuil, of course...I'll take double shots of that Emergen-C stuff, aaaand... Ricolas... lots and lots of Ricolas =..= What really sucks, is that I'm sore all over my torso. I mean, my chest of course, but my lower back and sides are killing me too.

You know, before I kept saying, "I can't wait till the reunion is over, just so that I'll have the memories as opposed to the anxiousness of getting it together." but now... I really I'm thinking the reunion is the least of my worries at this point =..=

<..< I think I need to eat. Besides, I'm just too exhausted to keep myself going. I'll post later. Bye, Sunshines.

 

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You See the Glass as Half Full

No matter what's going on in your life, you can always find something to be thankful for. You try to remain positive and focus on the good. It's not as easy as it seems, but it's always rewarding. Your optimism and joy inspire the people around you. You make the world a happier place. By seeing the glass as half full, you're sure to have more peace and contentment in your life. You might life longer too!

Do You See the Glass as Half Full or Half Empty?

My view of the glass really depends on whether we're judging it before or after I touched it >..>

 

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One thing that was really cool was, Chibi came to hang out with me around 2...well, the rehearsal was at 3:45. Reiko told her that she was invited to the rehearsal and the dinner afterwards, but Chibi had said that she had made dinner plans with her Dad. She said that she would hang out till around 5ish, and then leave to eat with her dad. Chibi hung out with me while we waited for everyone to arrive, and she hung out while we practised, which must’ve been boring. I looked up at like 4:45 and she was still there, and I was like, “Uh, Chibi, don’t you need to leave?” and she was like, “No. Dad called me and said he has to stay at work, so I’m gonna just stay here.” So, it was so fun. After the whole process of, you know, rehearsing. We went and hung out and ate and made fun of each other and had fun! It was great. The most fun wedding rehearsal I’ve been to...actually, now that I’m thinking about it, I’m wondering if it’s the only one I’ve been too...O..O

We came back here, and Jim and Reiko opened their Christmas presents, which was fun. Then Reiko asked Chibi and I if we’d go back to her house and help her pack up some stuff. I was exhausted, but so was Reiko, so I couldn’t really say no. We went there and came back, and tried to help Reiko’s mom with decorating the reception hall and all.....but I really was exhausted at that point. So I got upstairs and took my shower. It occurred to me that I wouldn’t be as alert the next morning as I might have hoped. So I sprayed some of that stuff that helps your hair to keep heating products from damaging it, and then I let it dry natural for a bit and then blow dried the rest of the way. Then I just straightened it as much as I could. By the time I passed out it was nearing 1 in the morning.

I woke up this morning around 7:15...I was kinda surprised, and seriously dragging, but I made myself get up and straighten my hair. I got dressed and went downstairs. I’m walking to my car and I hear someone call my name and it’s Jim and his family. They want to know where we could go and eat breakfast. We ended up at Wafflehouse and even if the it a skeezie place, they did make an excellent sausage, egg and cheese biscuit. I have to give them that. We had fun talking and enjoying our food and coffee. Jim’s Uncle told him, “It’s not too late, Jimmy...we could take you back to Kentwood.” and I turned to Jim with big pleading eyes and said, “It’s a better life for you there, Jim! It’s a better life for you in Kentwood!” he cracked up and said, “I guess I’m just a glutton for punishment. Then..I’m not sure why, but we went to the Harley Davidson shop that was right next door. I was like, “So, Jim....you more of an ‘Easy-Rider’ man or a ‘Crotch Rocket’?” He grins and retorts with, “Nah, Reiko’s more of the Crotch Rocket. I’m easy rider all the way.” I laughed myself silly at that. We looked around a bit and then just headed back to the hotel.

I made sure my hair was read and put on all my make up. Then I went to the church. Since I was the only one who had their hair and make up right, I went ahead and put on my dress first. It was a fight to get it on, and really I didn’t like it very much. It was too broad up top, and the sleeves weren’t as nice as I thought they’d be, and it wasn’t low in back but it was low enough that I couldn’t wear my bra =..= But I dealt with it and just sucked it up. Tabby (one of the other bride’s maids) had brought that skin to fabric tape, and I needed the side of the dress to be taken in slightly under the arm, so we did that. Then Tabby put on her dress....

Oh...sweet....God....Tabby is small, right? Like, make you sick small. She had told the dress shop that she’d probably be fine in a size 6, but they insisted she get an 8 and then allow them to take it in. Well, she went along with it, but she didn’t realise they were going to charge her over $80 in alterations. Then...she put the dress on....and it hovered over her chest so far, if she so much as moved she’d end up flashing us. She was so upset, and rightly so! So, we took it in ourselves - first with safety pins and then with actually sewing it. Then she just used the tape, and there was a shall/wrap that came with the dress, so she used that to make sure it didn’t seem weird.

Hollis, on the other hand (the only remaining bride’s maid) looked awesome, and needed almost no alteration to her dress. I mean, we all needed help situating ourselves and zipping up and adjusting our trains and sashes, but over all, I think we just pulled together and helped each other out and that’s what made it all great.

While we were getting ready, Reiko was taking her pre-wedding Bridal pictures. Then, once we were all as ready as we were going to be, we all took pictures together. The photographer girl was smart enough to set the camera up to take like 5 pictures one after the other, so if any of us blinked or our faces just didn’t look right, it would continue to take pictures. We tried various poses - some silly (shocking I know!) and some formal. By the time she was done with us and ready for the boys, she came over to us and said “Wow...so that’s 630 pictures taken, and the wedding hasn’t even started yet.” We laughed at that.

We waited in the rooms adjacent to the baptismal while the boys filed in through the side doors, and then when the pastor assured us they were all inside and wouldn’t see Reiko, we all left out the bak way to the next door area to wait till the ceramony started. When it was finally time for us to go, we gathered in the foyer. Mr. Ernie, Reiko’s dad, came over and thanked me for coming down and going through all this. As we were talking, I mentioned to him that, when the pastor asked “Who gives this woman to be married?” he kept saying, “I do.” and it was a little odd to me. He asked why and I told him that it should be “Her mother and I do.” because Mrs. Marry Jane has been orchestrating all this and she’s giving Reiko away as much as (if not more than) he was. So he nodded and said it did sound better.

The Wedding itself....was a very big slice of awesome. Everything pretty much went off without a hitch. And I find that the bride’s maids really did work as a unit. I mean, in the foyer, while we were waiting, I check both the girls’ trains and make sure their dresses are situated. And then whenever I’d have to move (to adjust Reiko’s train and help her, or to give the rings or sign as a witness), Hollis would lean in and tell me if I needed to move a smidgen, or she’d adjust my train. So, we really watched out for each other and helped each other out. I really think that’s why the wedding went off without a hitch.

I had Jim’s ring...and it’s a simple silver band with a celtic weave inlay into it.....and I have no pockets. So I kind had to slip it only my thumb and hide it under my other hand as I clutched my bouquet. Though, really, aside from handing over the rings and signing as a witness (my name’s the first signature on that paper!) my job was really to see that her train was fluffed and out behind her....then return to my spot. That was it. I must say that I did tear up just a tiny bit when they were reading their vows to one another and when her Dad walked her down the isle. But I kinda just made myself get over it and focus on what I was doing.

After Reiko and Jim went down the isle, I joined with my groom’s man and when we got to them in the foyer, we all high fived each other! It was hilarious! We were all high fiving, like total dorks. Then they received a few congradulations and made their get away. We lingered for a little while, mainly talking amongst ourselves. Then...we gathered up everything (along with a few of Reiko’s things) and headed back to the hotel for the reception.

Chibi and I were the informal DJs...as well as the Video-ographers....Chibi had to record everything while the ceremony was going on (I couldn't do it being a bride’s made), but during the reception, we shared the ownership of both titles. We worked the music and the camera. When I had to take pictures, Chibi had the camera. After all the pictures were taken, it was time for the bride and groom to have their first dance. Chibi was supposed to announce it, but she didn’t really want to (nor did she have the voice for it really), so she asked me to do it. So I told her to record me and I’d do it.

Admitedly...I have s et of pipes on me...a strong voice really, one that cuts through noise and above chatter. I boomed out, “Can I have your attention, please!” then once the hush had fallen, I followed with, “It’s now time for the first dance...will the lovely bride and her dashing groom please report to the dance floor!” ....and promptly came to near tears again at the sight of them slow dancing. It was very nice and very sweet. There were a couple of moments like that...like the last real dance which was between Reiko and her dad and Jim and his mom. Moments that just hits you, you know? And it made all the joking fade away, and the gravity of the event settled with a profound clarity. I was happy...and I wanted to cry.

Then, we ate cake! Oooh, and it was some good cake! Reiko remarked that the frosting was amazing, and I have to agree, but the cake in general was just good. Then she reminded me of the price, and Ladies and Gentlemen, I can now say that I’ve tasted a $300 cake and it was good....not as good as my sushi, but definitely good.

There were a few more silly dances. We caught some great stuff of the reception on the DVD....we were some of the great stuff on the DVD XD. But...the time ran out. About 45 minutes afterwards, I really couldn’t take the pain in my feet any longer. There were maybe a dozen people in there, and I knew that I had blisters and aching feet now with a down bed and wonderful shower upstairs. So I quit decided to quit the party. I gave Reiko a hug and a kiss and told her goodnight and the same with her mother and father. I looked at Jim and said, “Permission to hug?” He looked away, let out a sigh and nodded reluctantly, giving me a one-arm embrace. I’ll take what I can get.

I limped upstairs and showered...by then, my feet were so bad and I was in so much pain, I made sure to do very little walking. Mom took pity on me and rubbed lotion on my feet and massaged them carefully for quite some time. Tomorrow is church, but afterwards I intend to go to the movies with Chibi...she won’t be in town much longer, and I would love to spend more time with her. Then Monday, I’ll be driving to Abbeville to pick up Scamp and Brian for a day together with sushi and just hanging out.

...today was the most wonderful day...

I called Circuit City to ask about that guy who was supposed to call me, and they said that he hadn’t come in and that they couldn’t find him. I spoke with the manager directly, explaining my problem. I was called back a little while later by a young lady saying that he had told them that he had told me to bring my car in Wednesday or Thursday morning...which, is crap because I firmly remember him telling me he was booked up all for Monday and he’d go in to Sam’s Audio early and get the part he needed, and call me at nine to get it installed. I asked if I could make an appointment for Wednesday morning at open. Then after thinking about it, I called Sam’s Audio asking if they had a similar stereo system, and how much it’d be to install it. They gave me a quote and I made an appointment for this morning at 9. I was so furious and anxious about the whole thing, that I gave myself a panic attack. My doctor had given me some pills to take when I have a panic attack, so I broke the pill in half and took half of the pill, hoping it’d help to calm me down.

….I broke out in a clammy sweat all over my body, it was very hard to breath, I was dizzy and drowsy and nauseous, I got the shakes, and everything, even sitting in my chair and staring at my monitor, was taxing. I finished the work-load for Saturday’s mail (God knows how), and told Lo that I had to go home. The girls looked at me and told me they were not comfortable with me driving myself home, because I’d gotten very pale and just didn’t look good at all (not to mention that I’d gotten deathly quiet the moment the pill kicked in, and they know that means I’m really not feeling good). So, I called my Aunt Carolyn and asked if she could come and pick me up. She said she’d come with Uncle George, and she’d drive me home while he followed in their car. I am glad they picked me up too, because I kept feeling like I was going to throw up at every turn. I got home, made myself some dry toast (the girls had recommended it) and went to bed. It felt like I wasn’t really sleeping, you know? Like I was motionless and my eyes were closed, but I was aware of everything. And yet, it was like no time had passed. I have to admit, other than feeling like my stomach was made of lead, all the other symptoms (save the grogginess of course) went away. So maybe it’s just that I couldn’t be up and moving around under those meds…lots of good that’d do me.

Around 6, my parents called – and I thanked God I’d had the good sense to keep my phone with me. I talked with them for a bit and then, I think I fell back to sleep. I woke up again around 7ish. I got up, ate a bit, watched some TV (mostly my Daria DVDs), and worked on organizing the pictures for the Mecha Con Scrap book. I did get some of my clothes washed, but I went to bed right after my shower.

I only took half of that pill, and I still feel drugged. But I felt well enough to come in to work and bring my car in, and the whole mess is over. This morning, after I dropped my car off, I texted people….because I was bored just sitting there. I hadn’t thought to bring something to read. Reiko was busy at work, Chibi was at chapel, and only asked texted back to ask when I was going to Arkansas. Scamp, got my text message and called me! We talked…for about 45 minutes or so. Which was sort of funny, since she’s spending time with her honey, Brian. I hope he didn’t mind =..= Still, after I hung up, we were still texting. Twas amusing...even if I was still bored all by my lonesome.

Now, the only thing I have to worry about for my trip, is packing! I’m so ready to just be gone! Tonight, I’ve gotta finish packing, load up the car, wash the dishes and try to straighten up some, make sure TomTom’s all ready to go, and...and….ummm….oh! Wrap Mom’s gift =..= Yeah, I got her the card, made it all out for her and I even used my stamps on the gift box, but I’ve yet to actually wrap the gift. Nice right? Doh...

I put my jeans on to wash this morning when I got up, and then when that was done, I put them on to dry. That’s the only reason I couldn’t finish packing last night. My jeans (the most integral part of my wardrobe) were still in the dirty clothes pile. Dad left a pair of his jeans and a shirt behind, so I need to remember to bring that too. My brain keeps going through all of the things I need, and I’m like “Can I pack that yet...I don’t think I need it, so I think I can.” And then I keep reminding myself, “Don’t forget Wednesday, after you use that, you’ll need to pack it.” It’s insane. I’m thinking of bringing the little thing of Folders coffee...I know my Dad doesn’t drink coffee as much as when I was there. So, it’d be a good idea to be prepared.

Oh well.. I can’t think of anything else, and there’s work that needs doin’. I’ll talk later, Sunshines.

We started watching more of Supernatural, when my Mom called. She had set up an e-mail account for my Aunt Carolyn (who’s now living with the rents), and she couldn’t access it (or just didn’t know how -..-). After about 20 minutes of struggling to get them to the hotmail web site, she read me the “you’ve tried to log on to many times, so you’re locked out. Kthxbia!” message, so we decided to put off that trial till the next day. We gabbed back and forth for another 15 minutes, and then she said goodnight.

Chibi stayed for a little while longer. I showed her the YES dance – which has scared me for life – and the Urban Ninja – who I want to be when I grow up. We stopped...when did we stop?.../goes to the Super-Wiki. Ah! No Exit! The last one we watched was No Exit. Talk about a creepy episode. Possibly even more creepy than Everybody Loves a Clown. That was creepy too, but I’m more of a claustrophobe than a clown-o-phobe, so No Exit gives me the willies. I’m also a little creeped by, you know, psycho-serial-killer-ghosts-that-like-to-drag-you-off-and-paw-you-while-you-slowly-die-or-are-smothered-by-chloroform... That sorta freaks me out too...I suppose Dean said it best when he said, “The only thing worse than a pissed off spirit, is the pissed off spirit of a psycho.” Man...even if Asylum didn’t have too much creepy stuff in it, just the thought of the ghosts of inmates at a psych ward is freaky. The possibilities, you know?….

….what was I talking about before? Oh…right. The evening we had -..- But yeah! After No Exit we knew it was a little late to start watching another episode, so we just talked a bit about our plans for today. We decided that I’ll order something from Zen’s to go (Scamp, don't hate me), and she’ll just meet me out the Nexus. Just so’s we can watch more Supernatural (because God only knows when I’ll see her again ;_;). I do want to catch up on her life, and plans and…just talk and everything.

…I think that’s everything. I feel so much better in comparison to yesterday. No more days like that anytime soon, kthxbia! Later, Sunshines.

Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...

NBPS - The Idealist

You perceive the world with particular attention to nature. You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the shapes around you. Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude. You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You prefer a structured environment within which to live and you like things to be predictable.

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