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CuriousGet me offa this ride
2006-Jul-21, Friday 11:19 pmBeware, for I am: 
Anxious
Anxious
Wow. Today’s been a roller-coaster ride if ever there was one. It started off great, then was mildly annoying to absolutely painful, to surprisingly peaceful and fun to slightly anxious...But I don’t want to touch on the beginning or even some parts of the middle. Too weird and depressing and angsty and...emo. Can’t have that. So, without further ado, the good stuff.
I’d pretty much convinced myself that Max could, in fact, understand human speech until tonight. The other day, it was about to rain and Mom told me that she’d taken him out but he hadn’t done anything. So I took him out into the yard and I said, “Max, it’s about to rain. I understand you’re particular and all, but you should probably take care of business now. Lord only knows how long the rain’ll last and you certainly don’t want to have to use it in a mess like that.” Max promptly sniffed around in a circle and did his business. Both businesses actually... Then, I’m walking him around the yard this afternoon, and Rex (my Uncle Charles and Aunt Doris’s dog) sees him and of course starts barking. Max looks up and quickly becomes distracted. I roll my eyes and say, “Pay attention to what you’re doing.” And he returns to his sniffing and continues on. Seriously. That’s when I got to wondering about this dog. Tonight, Mom’s at prime timers and I’m laying in bed with my door open so that I can see Max while I watch TV. I hear some crumpling and sniffing and I realize he’s gone under my bed. I say, “Max, I don’t want you under my bed.” He emerges from my bed and looks over at me as if to say, “oh really? I’m sorry...” Of course, later tonight he ruined it when I calmly asked him if he wanted to go outside. He just stared at me blankly, but then when I went to get his leash he was all prance. Totally broke the ‘he can understand me’ spell -_-
Ok, so the thing that has me so anxious tonight...I kinda wrote a letter and an e-mail...to Ellen. Ellen DeGeneres that is...I addressed the letter to her Crazy Dream department, but the e-mail will be logged under questions. It was basically me introducing myself and then asking for help with writing my book and making a movie about said book. Although I’d want to make my movie first then put out the book. I’m sure you all know my theory on that whole thing so I won’t bother mentioning it. At the end of the request I admitted that it was a bit far-fetched and if it was too much, would she mind helping me figure out how to copyright my original ideas like the idea for my MM’s Jellies stationary as a consolation. I figure I have nothing to loose by trying, right?
So the letter isn’t even sent, and I’m already anxious and freaked. I really hope I can forget about it quickly so that I won’t spend too much time agonizing over a response. It’s just that I feel like I’m treading water, and I don’t know how to move forward. I don’t feel like I have the energy to move forward on my book because I can’t summon the energy to work on it and be the responsible adult that my parents want me to be. Things were so much easier when I was in college. Why is that? Why was it so easy for me to dream up things in college and now that I’m working they’re so much harder? I did most of my character work in college. I dreamed up the thousands of characters that inhabit my world and gave them names and colors and voices, but I can’t put life into them now. I feel useless and restless...but I don’t know what to do to help myself and I don’t know who to ask to help me...
Here I said I didn’t want this to turn into an emo/complaint entry and it seems to have done so anyway. But it’s my journal. So there. You could’ve stopped reading a while ago (and you probably have -.-). But anyway, that was today. I think I’ll go watch more of Batman till I get too tired to stay awake. G’night.
| You Are: 20% Dog, 80% Cat |
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MM
PS: mmhhmmmm….Batman...#___#
It's like it's the first time I've ever seen ...
2006-Jul-18, Tuesday 09:04 amBeware, for I am: 
Dorky
Dorky
...a snake. I just saw a snake in my yard for the first time. Ok, maybe it wasn’t the first time. I mean, I’ve seen what looks like a snake’s body in my other yard before just before seeing it slither off (quite quickly) and thought ‘huh, that was probably a snake’. But today for the first time, I saw a snake in the open and very clearly in my yard.
Ok, so from the top. I was walking Max around the yard a few minutes ago (my cousin’s dog who we dog-sit when they leave town). Anywho, One minute I’m trying to find some shade to walk him in and thinking about the amount of leeches I’ve seen in the grass; the next minute I look up and there’s this little snake underneath my Mom’s grapefruit tree. Of course immediately my stomach clenches and flops, I get short of breath, and my heart does that odd double beat. All signs of a) sheer terror; b) falling in love; c) all of the above. So there’s a good four or five feet between us, right? The dog hasn’t seen the snake (Thank God), and I give it a bit of a wide berth. Now, while we’re casually walking away, I take my time observing said creature. I realize that it’s standing up into a striking position (it must’ve been so scared -.-), but really it’s only about the length of my arm. It’s a dark tawny gold color, lighter on it’s belly with dark rings on it’s back. The whole time I’m observing this snake (and it’s observing me), poor Max is just poking along just trying to find a decent place to pee, and I'm here about to pee all over myself. He’s oblivious and I’m so grateful because the snake probably couldn’t take the stress of a dog lunging at it without retaliating and I couldn’t take the stress of the retaliation and might do something stupid. So, I lead Max away from the snake and we go about our routine, only I’m slightly more vigilant now. We head back inside and I tell Mom as calmly as I can because she has a phobia of snakes and gets freaked at the sight of a rubber one. So she tells me to call my Aunt Doris, right? So I do and I tell her about this snake. She says it’s probably either a king snake or a coral king snake. Of course, me being the American Dunce that I am, have no idea of a distinction. Mom hears the word ‘coral’ and gasps without even listening to the rest. I calm her down and see her off (she has a doctor’s appointment this morning), and then head back inside.
That leads us here, where I rushed onto LJ just so I could post about this before I got too calmed down and forgot everything. Now that the whole thing's happened, I can hear Ethelinda in my head telling me that I really should know more about snakes. Now's a great time to broaden my knowledge beyond those pathetic Wildlife Fact File binders of mine and really find out about the reptile/amphibian/bird/insect world. Of course I see through her ploy.
Now that I’m here though, I was watching the History channel this morning (something I actually enjoy doing, mind you), and what was on but a special about Stalin. Of course the minute I read that I heard Tom’s voice say, “I’ve always liked Stalin. Any leader who changes his name from Jughashvili to Man of Steel has my vote...so to speak.” Of course, I had no idea who Stalin even was. I tell you, I love my country, but I hate our education system. Our history comes first when we teach, other countries come later and we only give out the history we want to give out. If it didn’t happen here then it’s not important -.- But I got overly board hearing American history over and over as a child and totally lost interest. Makes it hard for a kid to actually seek out information. I do like the History channel if only because it comes off rather unbiased about history. It shows the good and bad and we’re left with what’s in between and the ability to decide on their own. I bet they sell DVDs...that might be something to look into later.
Well, I need another cup of coffee (keying myself up after my snake incident...strange no?) Talk at ya’ll later, Mina.
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Wow...guess that means I need to get rid of about ¾ of my friends’ list ^_^ Good thing no one takes these things seriously -_-
MM
PS: Ethelinda© MM 2000, btw -.-
Enh...screen...getting...fuzzy...
2006-Apr-28, Friday 11:15 pmBeware, for I am: 
Tired
Ok...so I just went on MySpace for no reason, which is a terrible thing to do, because if you don’t have a reason, you soon find miniscule reasons to stay on and do a lot of nothing. Long and short of this story is that I found out a place (MyTheme.com) that helps to make custom backgrounds and contact options things. Well, I made myself a little contact option box thingy, and I got the code for it...and I have no idea what I’m supposed to do with it. So I searched around their site to see if there was some FAQ thingy that shows you where you’re supposed to post the code so that it’ll load correctly. Unfortunately, my pills are kicking in and I really have lost the will to look for said code, which agitates me.
Here’s my day (in a nutshell).
Got up
watched Freak the Mighty or whatever it’s called since Gilmore Girls didn’t tape.
Vacuumed the living room & Mom’s room.
Checked the mail.
Got mom’s Mother’s Day gift and put it in a pretty gift bag and hit it.
Made Ramen noodles for Mom.
Tidied up the room a bit.
Visited with Reiko when she stopped by.
Walked Max (we have him for a while btw)
Packed up Chibi’s gift and sent it off.
Watched E! for the rest of the day while playing games on the computer.
That’s it. Now, the pills are making me type incorrectly and it’s taking longer. So I’m off to bed. ’Night.
Name:Tracie
Nicknames: MsMoon, The Crazy One, Ane-san, Bebe
Alter-Ego: MM
Sex: (no thanks =_=)Female
Age: 23
Birth date: 10 – 06 – 1983
Hometown: Houma
School: Home
Year: ...nan da?
Email: MSMariko00@hotmail.com
Chat: Not really.
Hair color: Golden brown...
Hair Length: Medium
Eye Color: Blue-gray
Height: 5 ft 6 in
Shoe size: 9 sometimes 9.5
Piercing(s): My ears have closed up.
Tattoos: N/A
Toothpaste: Listerine!
Toothbrush: Of course
Shampoo/Conditioner: Pantene Pro V
Perfume/Cologne: Cherry Blossom
Fashion Style: Casual
Shoes: Sometimes
Bedtime: late (insomniac)
Siblings: Old brother; 35
Pets: My parents are enough
Work: Please?
Bestfriend: Chibi / Reiko
Crush (famous person): Vin. *raises eyebrows* You know who I mean.
Phobias: The unknown. Being rushed. Being unprepared. Failure.
Describe yourself in 5 words: obsessive, detached, considerate, tired, anti-social
Concerts attended: N/A (don’t like ‘em)
Dream car: Limo with driver ^_~
Instrument: N/A
Hangouts: Home
Hobbies: Writing, sewing, reading, gaming
Collections: Books, DVDs etc
Habits: biting my nails, excessively rubbing my hands and face
Obsessions: Gargoyles, Thundercats, Gundam Wing, Alice 19th, Batman,
Over-used words/phrases:
Future: Unknown
Where I want to live someday: Anywhere as long as I’m close to my parents and able to discourse with my friends.
[†] FAVORITE [†]
Color:
BlueNumber: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 7, 8, 9
Holiday: Christmas
Season: Spring and Autumn
Month: October
Anime: Slayers, Robotech, Sailor Moon
Video Game: Mortal Kombat
Animal: mammals, birds, reptiles, amphibians, and fish...
Relative: My Parents
Sport to watch: anything with horses
Sport to play: anything with Horses ^_^
Teacher: Connie-san
Class: Literature
Books: Anything by C.S. Lewis or Gordon R. Dickson
Toy as a kid: My Little Ponies
Comic Strips: WTF Comic
Cartoon Characters: Batman
Words: Several...
Stores: Target, Wal-Mart, Coach House
Winter Activity: Drinking Hot chocolate with blanket + Good Book
Award: Five gold stars for a drawing of jellyfish attacking a rabbit (2nd grade -_-)
Sound: Rain, thunder, wind (weather)
Smells: Food cooking
Time to wish?: when you’re young.
Quote: “Life isn’t about having the time to do what you want...it’s about making the time to do what you love.” - Me
[†]FOODS[†]
Food:
::too numerous to note:: Burgers, steak, sausage, ramen noodle, Chinese, Italian, sour cream and onion chips...Fast Food: ...uh...whoppers from Burger King, Wendy’s Frescata sandwiches, Taco Bell taco salad 7 meximelts...the list goes on.
Drink: Root beer, raspberry tea, water
Gum: N/A
Fruit: Pineapple
Chocolate: yes, please.
Chips: Sour cream and onion
Cookie: white-chocolate chip
Desserts: bananna split, moolates(sp?) from Dairy Queen
Ice Cream: Yes please
Popcorn flavor: um…butter and caramel?
Pizza toppings: mushroom, cheese
[†] AM I [†]
An open person:
MostlyShy: *laughs* No.
Loud: Sometimes
Outgoing: In a conservative way
Nice: Most of the time
Rude: not very often
Mad: we’re all mad here...
Mean: occasionally
Sarcastic: constantly
Trendy: not in the slightest
A slut: no way
A bitch: when I wish to be
An asshole: I’m sure I have my moments
Having fun: …yet?
[†] DO I [†]
Smoke:
NoCurse: Occasionally
Believe in God: Yup
Believe in love at first sight: No
Believe in the death penalty: Yes
Want to have kids: No way
Want to get married: eventually
What did I do today?
2006-Feb-03, Friday 10:50 pmBeware, for I am: 
Indifferent( Shih what )
You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.
"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the
advice given to her by the spirits, Unicorn
went inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."
Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.
As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never
come in contact with before. Some people may
say you are too nosey, but it's only because
you like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends
to have because they are inquisitive.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Indifferent
Today seemed like quite a day, when really not much happened. I talked with my Twin earlier, Mom sent me to the store to get the minimum amount of groceries we needed, I picked up po-boys for us on the way home, I came home and washed clothes, and I played Black&White 2 till Trading Spouses came on. Then I watched that with Mom.
Oh yeah! Tonight, during Trading Spouses, we got a call from my Aunt Carolyn. She wanted to know if we’d mind watching Max for the night. Max is my Cousin’s dog, and Aunt Caroyln had said she’d watch him, but she can keep him inside her house and it turned really cold out. We’ve watched him before, and he’s very well-mannered and sweet so we said we wouldn’t mind at all. He’s a ...hmm...how does one spell it without cussing? A Shih Tzu? It’s something like that. Anyway he’s cute and adorable. I figured I might as well post pics of him.
I guess that’s all for today. I’m kinda tired from the past two nights of not sleeping well. I’m gonna go walk Max and then go on to bed. Goodnight.
You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.
"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the
advice given to her by the spirits, Unicorn
went inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."
Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.
As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never
come in contact with before. Some people may
say you are too nosey, but it's only because
you like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends
to have because they are inquisitive.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
How fitting...
MM
