Face the Change
2008-Oct-28, Tuesday 02:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I finally got around to telling the girls what was up. Probably one of the harder things I’ll have to do in a long line of hard things. At first there was shock, and then joking ( “who we gonna ask when the computer messes up?” and “Can I have your desk?”) then...then it set in. And now they’re a tad on the devastated side...in a way, it’s better to have everything in the open...but, I also feel bad for having them share my despair. Sure, friends are for that right? To help shoulder what you’re feeling... But still. What I went though over the weekend was torture – thought most of that was because I kept it all to myself. But is it right to expose that cycle to everyone now? Now they have to start thinking of finding someone to replace me, which they say is impossible. Of course, considering my replacement sort of finalizes it...I really wish I could’ve stayed till December, but then I would’ve been raining on everyone’s Christmas...so maybe it’s better this way...I’ve e-mailed Mrs. Ellen, asking that my last day be Nov. 14th. That gives me two weeks to work and two weeks to pack/spend time settling affairs and being with friends.
Dad leaves for work some time this evening. Mom’s going to rest for a couple of days (they both cleaned out Dad’s entire shed...which is a huge feat that took an entire day to do), then she’s going to ask Uncle George if she can borrow his truck to get some boxes for me. She’s gonna start packing up the ‘non essentials’ while I’m at work...that’s the plan so far. Reiko called me too, she said she’s coming down Sunday and wanted to know if I wanted to go cake testing with her. I’m certainly not getting any thinner here, so I guess that’s ok :)
On one hand I’m sad about the whole thing...but on the other hand, I’m a little excited. I mean, the work situation isn’t going to get any better for a while...I assume it might take a while to get another job. And yes, things won’t really be that great till after Reiko’s wedding, because I’ll have to drag myself back here and then leave again...but, I’ll be grateful when Christmas finally turns to New Year and I can settle in. I just wish I could have a “satellite office” like my bosses do, so that I could still work for them. They’re just such great people.
We’re still all set to have our sleep-over on the 20th and then all go see Twilight on the 21st. My house’ll be a little bear, but all that really matters is that we’re together. I’m on the fence about whether or not I should go ahead and buy those outfits for Reiko and I to wear. We had planned on wearing matching outfits of black that I designed – my shirt would say “Bite me” on the front with “Team Edward” on the back and the pants would have “Cullen Coven” on the leg and “Dazzled” on the back (all in red letters) and Reiko’s would be opposite...her shirt would say “Dazzled” on the front and her pants would say “Bite me” on the back ^..^ A part of me wants to save money...but another part says to go all out for one last ho-ra. I’m really leaning towards the latter. It’s important to me to have fun with my girls...more good memories than sad ones.
I guess that’s all for now. I’ll talk later, Sunshines.
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