Unsatisfied

[msmoon]

As good as things are, as content as I should be…I’m not. And I hate myself for it sometimes. *sighs* Honestly...It’s not like I’ve got it bad. I have one of the greatest lives I know…but it’s just enough. Never full.

It doesn’t help that my friends are going through so much crap either. And they both live so far away...I mean, Jen’s not going through as much as Scamp, but I can still tell she’s restless. And Scamp’s going through so much crap with her now ex-boyfriend *sighs*. What really sucks is that even if we all lived next door to one another, there still wouldn’t be much that I could do. These are all problems that I can’t solve or really help...but still, I pride myself on being a considerate friend...and I can’t be there for them right when they need me. As wonderful as it is to have the thoughts and feelings of friends with you, it’s still no where near as good as having them physically there to bitch, scream and rant with.

As for Scamp’s troubles...I never really met Billy...and I’m glad that I didn’t. I probably would’ve gotten attached to him and then been abruptly cut off. Then I’d probably be even more pissed than I already am. And being pissed isn’t good for MM. At least, it’s not good for those around her.

I have to say, I hope our paths never cross. I’m not a forgiving person. I have swords, a shovel and I live in a swamp; there are places I could put him where no one would want to look for him.

Work’s getting tense too. There’s so much piled up in stats…Let me just explain this. Stats is basicly a Excel worksheet that has each of our clients evaluations and their results. I go through them, line by line, and make sure that the information is correct. So, I’ve got about a million pages to go through before I get caught up, and we get an averge of 15 pages worth of new evaluations coming in each week. So, I’m trying to catch up by going through old worksheets, when new worksheets are being generated every day =..= It seems like it’s never ending. I’m about a month behind too. I guess that little vacation I took didn’t help me either. But, hell man. We all need a break now and then. From the time that I sat down this morning to …about 20 minutes ago, I did 10 pages. It takes a while. And it’s monotonous work.

I really don’t want this all to be a bitch rant. Uh...Mom and Dad are going to Colorado this weekend and Scamp will be coming over next week. Dad’s already reminded me to make sure I know what paint colors I want where so that we’ll be ready for Uncle Steve. Of course...Uncle Steve won’t be coming down until a month from now...but whatever. I’m buying a bunch of stuff for my bathroom with this coming check. That’ll be really cool. It just feels like pieces of the puzzle are coming together, and that’s always good.

I can’t really think of anything that I could write about...I’m tired already and I have till 5 to work =..= Thus is life. Oh well. Later, Sunshines.

 

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