msmoon | Another day down (Reply)

Well Minna (Everyone), it's been another slow lazy day. I got to talk to my twin-san but it was really short. But there’s always Saturday. Today me and mom just hung out all day long. I realized that my mom is one of my best friends…in fact she’s the only one I really open up to. And I think I’m too antisocial. I’ve never been to any type of dance or anything and I can’t see myself there. I just am so antisocial but what’s really funny is… I like the way I am. I’m passive and patient and a realist. I’m used to pain and take things in stride. I’m creative but secretive so I don’t show off or flaunt that creativeness. I probably judge to harshly though, and I should work on that. I never show anyone my emotions because I’m sure they won’t care or will just hurt me. I leave my feelings under my bed for fear they’ll get hurt. I suppose it’s self-preservation but in truth it’s not because I’m just antisocial. It’s because I’m too smart and too sensitive to live any other way right now. Who knows…maybe with time things will get better but for right now it’s all I have. Maybe I’m just rattling on but if it helps then what’s the harm in it right? So I leave you with these thoughts on me, whoever you are reading this. And if you just wandered here by accident don’t worry about me… no one else does.
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