Does Rudeness run in the Family?

Mood: Groggy

Yo. I’ve been fighting off a strange exhaustion for the past few hours that nothing can cure...so, I’ve decided to quit fighting it and just go to sleep early =.=

The interview today went ok. It was an interview. They said if they decide on me I’ll get a call from them Friday. On the down side, if I hear nothing by Friday it’s back to the drawing board. I just wish I didn’t judge myself so critically. Honestly, I am capable of doing the job (as long as they give me an adjustment period where I’m able to learn their procedures). But because of my looks, I always think I’m inadequate. I hate my appearance because I think there’s nothing for it. Even if I put on makeup, I don’t like it. Even if I style my hair I don’t like it...though I do love my hair. It’s soft and shiny, so I love it; but, I do hate how it never does anything the way I want it to. And all this makes me insecure...I suppose. Even with makeup, this is the best I can do…

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oh well. In other news, my Mom is home safely tonight. Aunt Lane sorta shoved her out the door, and she was really missing me too. It just made sense to come home. According to Mom, Aunt Lane said that Uncle Steve and Aunt Jane wanted to come and take care of her (her being Aunt Lane that is), and they wouldn’t come over if Mom was there. It’s common knowledge that Mom and Aunt Audrey are Christians, and the rest of the family (with the exception of Aunt Annie) feel extremely uncomfortable around them because of it. It was sorta rude to say something like “They won’t come over if you’re here.” But that’s kinda the way my Aunt Lane is. So, Mom took that as her cue and left. It isn’t her fault if she can’t do anything to please them. They’re un-pleasable sometimes.

Other than that, CSI: Miami rocked last night, and I can’t wait to see the conclusion in CSI: NY tomorrow. You know, Mom and I never really watched CSI: NY regularly...if it was on and there was nothing to watch, we’d watch it; but, it was never on our priority list. I think I might just start taping it. The only reason I didn’t before is because Mom said she didn’t enjoy watching it. But, I’ll give it a try, and keep in on the taping list for a little while longer...I may have something else to look forward to. Man...that makes me sound so pathetic.

I did kinda get sucked into that I Love the 80's marathon they had on VH1...For some reason, whenever VH1 has this "I Love The *insert year here*" I cannot stop watching. I even find myself upset if I come in the middle because it means I missed something! It's weird. It's like they just...suck me in and keep me watching. I find myself wishing they had countdowns of other things like anime or games or something...It's werid. It's pathetic, but I can't make myself look away. Damn them and their countdowns and lists and...such...Damn them to hell! Those damn dirty apes! It's like some forbidden spell of domonation! It's brainwashing, I know it!....Or...maybe I'm just a looser -.-...moving along....

I guess that’s really just about it. My eyelids are now going on strike, so I’d better close this out soon. Goodnight, mina.

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