I just finished Fit To Be Tied by Robin Lee Hatcher...a book that my Mom bought for me. It's a christian romance novel set in 1916 on a ranch, and not bad for a western fairy tale (if you get my meaning). Like many romance novels (christian notwithstanding), the couple don't take a shine to one another at first but slowly begin to grow fond of each other. They are stark opposites, but exactly what each other need. She, the daughter of a rancher and one of the best mustang wranglers around refusing to conform to society because who she knows she's happiest when she is herself; and he, an English dandy, fourth born son of a duke and somewhat crippled from an injury in the war. The couple face some adversities after admitting their affections for each other, but persevere and overcome them. In the end, it ends with what seems to be a happily ever after...
...though the next few pages made obvious what I'd neglected to initially notice. Right there, just above the author's name... "The Sisters of Bethlehem Springs" ... I had no idea how long this series is, but after a quick search, I found it is 2 in a series of 3. The First, A Vote of Confidence, I have along with the other books Mom got me. And while I wouldn't say this is the most wonderful book I've ever read, no offense intended of course, it is a happy diversion. I've seldom had the chance to just read something for the fun of it.
Another thing I've gotten away from is writing. I do vlog and all but...well... I've been tired. Very very tired. I haven't wanted to talk about it because I do hate to complain. I feel like I'm so lucky that I have no right to it. When I do complain, I always admonish myself for it because along with being useless it's annoying and not something anyone really wants to hear. But... I am tired all the time. Mind numbingly, debilitatingly tired... All the time. And when I'm not tired, doing anything (anything at all!) makes me tired. I have no enthusiasm for anything. I make myself exercise and work, but it's grueling. And on days like today when I'm actually in pain, I'm overwhelmed by exhaustion. It's not so bad now, but all day today was very difficult to get through.
Marsha, Pastor Sam's daughter, and her family came in from out of town because today is Anna's birthday party. They wanted to get together before the party and go to the Buffalo. I went. I went only to visit with Marsha, because even though we really (and I mean really) don't have much in common, she's fun to be around...and I don't get to see her often. In a way, our friendship reminds me of me and Reiko if only because we have less in common but simply tend to enjoy each other's company. I find it strange still that people seem to enjoy talking to me... odd. Anyway, the point was to say that every single time I had to move, it felt like I'd run a marathon. All I did was sit in a chair, sit in a van, get out and carry some stuff to the side of the river, sit for a while, watch the minnows around my angles, and then get back in the van and sit for the ride back.... I put our things into our car again and we came home, and I felt like I'd been wrung out. I did enjoy the time I had with Marsha, but... I was just so exhausted afterwards =..='
I came home, showered and took a nap... evidently a log one too. But it did refresh me a bit. Still, I always wake up feeling worse at first. I guess I'm like a bear when I wake up -..-' And it's bad luck to wake me when I'm sleepin' :)
I have an appointment with my doctor this Tuesday... I'm hoping she can help. I really don't know what's wrong, or if nothing's wrong then what I should be doing that I'm not or what I could do that would help. But I can't keep living like this. I don't even have the energy to write anymore. I write for maybe 45 minutes Sunday... and that's a big maybe. Sometimes, I'm too tired to do it then. And I'm so sick of sitting/laying about. I want to prove, if to no one else then at least to myself, that I'm not really lazy...but, is it too much to hope that I won't be exhausted after forcing myself to do anything?
Oh! I almost forgot! The minnows in the buffalo :3 Ok, so, when we go to the buffalo, we always bring these fabric foldable chairs and sit just the legs in the shallow part of the river. We just sit with our feet in the water, usually up to our ankles. Well, today...what with being so tired and all, I was especially still. I didn't move for however long we sat there. And the tiny fish and minnows in the river will come up and swim around you. Depending on if you have chips or bread, and how long you're willing to wait, you may even see small/medium sized fish swim up to you. Well, after a while, this fish lays down (sorta) on my toes! It was probably all of an inch and a half long, and it's belly was kinda flat... it looked a little like those fish that eat algae in fish tanks but it's mouth wasn't on bottom. Anyway, it just sat there for a while... and then it shot off real fast. A few minutes later (like I said, I didn't move from my spot), it came back and just laid there again. Mom commented that it liked the color on my toenails o..o' But then it laid on the strap of my flip flop (croc-flop). The third time was the last time I saw it, because the kids came in and it was time to eat. But it just tickled me so much that it was there. I wished, not for the first time, that I had remembered to bring my camera.
I guess that's all for now. I just finished reading my book and... I dunno. I felt like, "It's a shame that I don't write anymore in LJ." So there you go :)
You Would Be a Down to Earth Celebrity
You aren't easily impressed or star struck, and if you were to become famous, it wouldn't change your own opinion about yourself.
You'd still treat everyone as you always have, and more importantly, you wouldn't expect to be treated any differently.
You'd be friendly to your fans and as accessible as possible. After all, they're the ones who make you famous.
You'd be a celebrity in the mold of Kate Winslet, Renee Zellweger, John Mayer, and Ashton Kutcher.
P.S. It's sad, but I'd actually forgotten about blogthings quizzes and what a normal entry in my LJ looks like. I really hope I can get back into the swing of things and not solely rely on Twitter to remind myself what I've been up to (in case I just forget :3).